Wednesday, December 30, 2009


I have NOT done good this week.
Imagine that!

Only thing promising I have done is throw out all the junk food in my office. I didn't give it to anyone else in the office. I threw it OUT!

On a different note...
I haven't had my cycle since Oct. 30th.
No, I'm not pregnant.
According to the HPT anyway.

But it seems like I might start here in a few days.
Naturally, since I'm trying to start exercising and eating right! UGH

Since Kevin got out of the Army I've had to get different insurance and I still have to find a family doctor. I heard of one who also has a diet clinic so I think I might check him out instead of going to the other fat doctor.

He starts his new job on January 11th.
We don't know what shift he's going to get but I hope it's the 2nd one. Yes, I will miss him but it will give me the opportunity to eat a healthy dinner and exercise when I get home from work. No, he doesn't keep me from doing it. But when he's home I'd rather spend time with him then in the workout room.

I've been trying to think of small goals.
Smallest I can come up with is 2 lbs a week.
BUT for the first month I think I'm going to shoot for just 1 lb a week so I don't get discouraged early on. Ultimately having lost 40 lbs by June 2010. Does that sound reasonable?

Monday, December 28, 2009

4 days left

In 4 days I plan on changing my life,
for the better.

I don't think I've ever called it that.
So, maybe it will work this time...

Last week I stepped on the scale.
It said 190. I almost cried.

I went and asked the hubbs if it looked like I'd gained any weight. He said no. So, I told him what the scale said. He did not believe me and made me get on it again. He says it said 187. That's still 10 pounds more than the last time I stepped on it.

Honestly, I think all 10 pounds is on my face.

I'm not going to wait and start on Friday.
I'm going to try and make little changes all week so it's not a super huge change. And I won't start full force until Monday, the 4th.

I have sooo much junk food in my office.
I can't decide if I'm going to just eat it all over the next 4 days. Or throw it all away. Here's to hoping I can just throw it all away...

I haven't decided if I'm going to go back to counting WW points. I know I don't want to count calories though. And the hubbs refuses to let me pay to go to WW meetings. He doesn't see the point. Of course, why would he? He's not a fat female! ugh

I asked him if he was going to expect me to make separate meals for him when I started eating better and he said no, he'd eat what I'd make. So, that makes me happy. That's where I've messed up before. I thought I was being a bad wife for making him eat on my diet and I'd feel so guilty.

I've been contemplating going back to the fat doctor and getting shots. It did work the very first time I tried and stuck with it. I think I will lose 10 pounds before doing that. I feel like the less I weigh the easier it will come off. And there's no point in getting the shots until I'm in good and hard at exercising.

Ok, enough rambling for today.

Monday, December 14, 2009

140 days

That's right, it's been 140 days since I've had tea or coke.


I don't even crave it anymore.

I think it's partly due to Squirt.
It's like Sprite, but grapefruit instead of lemon-lime.

Anyway, I just wanted to post on here because I've been thinking about it a lot lately.

Like, everytime I eat bad I make the excuse "Oh, I better enjoy it now."

In less than 3 weeks I intend to start a serious diet and exercise regiment. It will be my New Year's Resolution.

I'm sick of being fat.

I'm sick of wearing the same clothes because I don't want to buy new ones in the size I am.

I'm sick of my boobs looking small because my gut is big.

I'm sick of not liking pics of myself because my face is getting rounder.

I'm sick of being fat. Period.

Lord, please give me the strength to make it through this time!

Monday, November 30, 2009


Obviously, I haven't been doing good.
I'll be back on track after the New Year...
Can you guess what my resolution will be???

Monday, October 26, 2009

I'm here...

Still sticking with my decision to start AGAIN today.

I bought a new shirt at Target a few weeks ago.
It's super cute but I look huge...
I'm wearing it today as a constant reminder.

The treadmill is still sticking.
I'm really irritated that we wasted $100.
I'm scared of breaking my ankle.
So I'm stuck with the elliptical, again. ugh

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


I've been disgusted with myself the last few days.
Partly because I'm sick and partly because I'm a slacker.

The only thing I've been doing good on is no soda or tea.
I have had coffee a few times, but it was never a lot.
Today is day 87...
I have a feeling I'm gonna be back on the sweet tea wagon soon. But I won't do sodas anymore. Let me rephraise that, I won't do dark sodas. Sometimes I just need a Sprite.

I have an appt with the urologist in 2 weeks. They've still been hurting me. If he tells me those suckers have grown I'm gonna go postal. He told me stop all the things I have and if it didn't work then he's gonna have to figure out what else is wrong!

I haven't been doing my Weight Watchers.
And I certainly haven't been getting on the scale.

I can't seem to find any motivation.

I was doing good with the treadmill last week until it started acting stupid and I did the elliptical and that just hurts my knees and hips way too bad.

I'm gonna try super hard to start fresh Monday,
wish me luck!

Monday, October 5, 2009


I'm a slacker.
I did work out last week but not enough.

My scale is apparently broke.
I replaced the batteries and it still doesn't work.
I think I'm over the digital ones.
Time to get the old school kind.

Now that I've been steadily working out I decided to try something new. Yes, I know I said I wouldn't but I can't stick to it.

I'm kinda nervous about the thermogenic but I seriously work my butt off and don't break a sweat so maybe it'll be a good thing.

& yes, I realize it has caffeine in it. This was hard to swallow at first until I thought about why I gave up caffeine initially. It was because I was trying to kick the 'soda' habit. Today is day 71 in fact. So, I can obviously not say I'm caffeine free anymore. So, I'll stick with soda & tea free!

I will try to get a scale and weigh in Friday...

Monday, September 21, 2009

motivated, again

Somehow I've found motivation again.
Let's see how long it lasts this time...

Kevin starts his new job next Monday.
He'll probably get nights which is totally gonna suck.
Except I'll have nothing better to do than walk on the treadmill all night...

Monday, September 14, 2009

Day 50

Today is the 50th day of no soda or tea.

Can you believe I don't even want it anymore?
Not even tea!

I wanted to start this week off right and get on the treadmill this morning but that didn't happen. I stayed up later than usual and slept in late. oops!

But I do intend on getting my butt on there this afternoon!

Friday, September 11, 2009


I forgot to weigh in this morning.

Most likely because I knew I hadn't lost the 2 pounds...

But the treadmill is fixed and I intend to start using it this weekend. It's time to get back on the track. Full speed ahead!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Still here

Another weigh in tomorrow.
I'm dreading it hard core,
thinking I may just skip it all together...

I haven't been doing cardio.
I have been doing abs and arms but not consistently.

UPS finally came yesterday w/the lube for the treadmill.
Kevin's got it working like it's brand new.

Looks like that's what I'll be doing tonight.

I'm kinda scared...
I know most people think an elliptical is better than a treadmill but I know from personal experience that a treadmill is better for me. I distinctly remember the day I was sooo excited after I joined the gym and spent 30 minutes on the treadmill. Then the next day my entire body was sore. Places hurt that I didn't even know I had or had ever used before! So to me, a treadmill is a total body workout. The only thing the elliptical has ever hurt is my calves and hip joints! haha

I'm back to full motivation today.
I'm determined to try on a pair of skinny jeans and not look ridiculous before Christmas is here!

Friday, September 4, 2009

No Loss

I did not reach my goal of losing 2 pounds.

I will try again next week...

Monday, August 31, 2009

jiggle jiggle

I am officially seeing the weightloss.
My fat pants are falling off today.
My bra doesn't fit right.
And my stomach is jiggly.

Yes, I realize most people would think "ew jiggle." BUT, my stomach was like a pregnant ball, nice and firm. I'm thinking jiggle is good at this point. Like my fat is breaking up and moving on. I obviously have to kick the ab workouts up a notch...

I cannot use the treadmill yet. From being stored for roughly 2 years it needs some lube to make the belt stop sticking (so I don't faceplant). Anyone know where to get that? I figure I'll be spending a crapload just to order it online. UGH

AND, I'm not gonna post my food/points on here every day. It's getting a little mundane. I'll probably just catch everything up on Fridays when I weigh in.

I'm Still Here

It's been a few days...

I didn't keep track of anything while my parents were here. Bad idea, I know. But, I know I didn't do bad. I still watched my portions and my selections. I was super proud of myself and my Mom couldn't believe her eyes.

The only struggles I had was their Coke addiction.
Seeing all those Cokes in the fridge was ROUGH.
But I somehow survived!

My goal is to have lost 2 lbs by Friday.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I did it!

I decided to weigh in this morning since my parents will be in town this afternoon through Sunday.

And it said 172.0!
(Not 172.3 or 172.8)

Which means I've lost 5 pounds!
I was pretty skeptical but now I'm just proud!

My next goal is to lose 2 pounds by next Friday, the 4th.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

23 points yesterday

My foot is feeling much better. But I've decided not to work out, again. Since it is feeling better I'm gonna let it rest the rest of this week and start fresh next week.

I'm pretty sure I won't have lost the 5 pounds I wanted to by Saturday morning but I'm still trying to stay positive...

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
Smartones - 5pts
string cheese - 1pt
Quarter Pounder - 9pts
Salad - 1 pt
2 Michelob Ultra - 4 pts

Beer is only 2 points? Heck yes!
I don't drink that often but I had a hellacious day and needed to relax. haha

Monday, August 24, 2009

bad bad bad

I didn't do any counting this weekend.

This is my first cycle without caffeine and I'm struggling hard core. But let me just say that only drinking water has major benefits. I have not been bloated ONCE!

I was still conscience of what I ate, just didn't keep track. Like, we ate out twice but I had chicken instead of burgers and no fries.

Weighing in on Saturday morning... uh oh

Friday, August 21, 2009


Had a cupcake yesterday. It sent me over!

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
Smartone - 6pts
Apples w/caramel - 1pt
Cupcake - 6pts
Whopper Jr. - 9pts

total: 25 points

Weigh in day is 8 days away...
Super nervous!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

sour cream

I've come to realize that sour cream is hardest thing for me to measure out. Whew, I struggled last night. But, I did it and even the hubbs gave me props.

What's the hardest thing for you?

Right on target yesterday
24 points:

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
banana - 2pts
Smartones - 4pts
tomato - 0pts
string cheese - 1pt
WW cake - 1pt
2 servings Taco Soup - 8pts
2 tbsp sour cream - 2pts
1/4 cup cheese - 3pts

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

24 points

For going to a buffet for lunch yesterday, I'd say I did pretty good. Somehow I managed to get nothing fried and hardly any meat. I had 2 bites of baked chicken then decided it was gross. Anyway...

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
WW snack cake - 1pt
tomato - 0pts
green beans - 0pt
yams - 2pts
potatoes - 3pts
salad w/ranch - 5pts
Whopper Jr. - 9pts
string cheese - 1pt

I didn't do any exercise yesterday. I'm totally slacking in that area but my foot pain has now radiated up my shin. Yes, I know I could still do abs, arms and chest but I'm just so discouraged right now.

The nurse from my urologist's office finally called me back. Said it was ok to take Alli. But while I was waiting a week for her to return my call I did some research and got peoples opinions. Long story short, I'm not gonna take it. It's a risk I just don't want to take. So, I wasted $40 but when I think about not wanting to have kidney stones surgically removed it makes me feel better about it. haha

My weigh in day is less than 2 weeks away and I'm getting really nervous. I'm gonna be icing and heating my foot all day. I've googled every possible remedy and am gonna try it all!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

22 points for yesterday

I did much better yesterday than I did over the weekend. Which is good considering I didn't really do that bad over the weekend... haha

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1 WW candy - 1pt
Lean Cuisine - 6pts
veggie salad - 1pt
steak - 5pts
1/2 cup noodles - 4pts
salad - 2pts

My exercise yesterday was walking our two (horses) dogs. Last time we weighed Bubba he had reached 125 and Leutian was about 90. So, I got a workout. They did NOT let me walk slow. It was quite entertaining.

But, it was not a smart idea. I laid on the couch with my foot iced the rest of the night and even wore and ice pack to bed. Yes, it hurt that bad. BUT, it's not hurting too bad this morning so maybe I've just learned how to baby it.

Monday, August 17, 2009

tough weekend

I didn't do too good this weekend.
I didn't exactly eat bad, I just didn't keep up w/my points.

I'm not taking the Alli anymore.
Pretty sure that's what caused my kidney stones last year.

Today is day 22 of no soda/tea.
Officially 3 weeks. I'm super proud of myself.

I am back on track today.
Less than 2 weeks until I weigh in.
I'm getting nervous...

But hey, I did get a treadmill this weekend! woo hoo!

Friday, August 14, 2009


I wouldn't exactly call it a slip up but I had dinner at a friend's house last night so there's no telling how many points I had. It was all veggies except the hamburger steak so I'm thinking I didn't do too terribly bad...

11 points before dinner

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1/2 cup raspberries - 0pts
Smartone - 6pts
2 WW snack cakes - 2pts

I'm determined to do super good this weekend.
Hopefully even buy a treadmill.

Also, I've decided once again to just suck up the pain in my foot but continue taking the ibuprofen. Starting Monday, I will be working out again whether my foot still hurts or not. I cannot do this anymore, it's too discouraging.

Got my first Weight Watchers cookbook in the mail yesterday from eBay. It's super old. Like, so old it doesn't have Points values! Oopsie! So, I'm just gonna hang on to it until I can get a system down and be able to eat right without counting points as psychotically.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Day 18

I was never able to get a call back from my urologist so I'll be taking the Alli until I do!

22 points yesterday

2 packs oatmeal - 6pts
string cheese - 1pt
Smartones - 5pts
carrots w/ranch - 1pt
2 WW snack cakes - 2pt
Mexican Chili - 4pts
salad - 1pt
Babybel cheese - 2pts

I soon as I eat the cheese I've stocked up on for snacks I'm not buying anymore. Taking Alli, I need to save all the fat grams I can. haha

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


Well, after the bad news yesterday I had to make some new decisions.

So, I had chinese food for dinner and then went to Wal-Mart to buy Alli. haha

I've tried it before and it worked wonders. But I slipped up too much. Since I've been doing really good with WW I think I can do it better this time.

Bad thing is, I got home and read all the stuff to find out I'm supposed to ask my doctor since I have kidney stones (wonder if that's what caused them in the first place???). Can't wait to hear what he says. I'm gonna blow a gasket if he says not to take them.

I only had 10 points yesterday before eating chinese.
Though I sure what I had was more than 14 points...

I got up and did abs, arms and chest this morning.
I may have over done it on the abs. Only time will tell I guess.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Just my luck...

I've been dealing with foot pain since the 30th.
Finally decided to go to the doctor today...

I've sprained it nice and good (though I have no idea how). It was even nice enough to swell up a little for him when I got there.

Basically, since I've been working out through the pain and not letting it heal it's not gotten better. Obviously.

He gave me some high mg ibuprofen to take 3 times a day for 2 weeks. And said to stay off of it as much as possible.

Well, that's just what I wanted to hear since I can lose weight sitting on my ass! UGH

Looks like I'm gonna have buff arms and abs by the time I can do cardio cause that's all I'm gonna be able to do! I'm hoping and praying that maybe it'll heal up quickly!

Keep your fingers crossed for me!


I seriously have to stop with the snacks.
Regardless if they are 1 point or not!
I think it is being a bad influence on me.

Last night the hubbs said, "You're eating stuff you wouldn't be eating if you weren't on a diet." And as much as I hate to admit it, he's totally right. I'm snacking just because I see that I have extra Points. Which means I'm gonna have to start eating more heartier (points filled) meals.

I'm really hating the Points system right now.
I'm not quiting, just saying I hate it...

Also, I haven't worked out in 3 days.
Nope, didn't yesterday either.
My foot is still killing me and I'm pretty confident the elliptical is what's keeping it from healing. BUT, I have a doc appointment at 1:30 today and maybe he can get me some sort of brace or tell me what to do or something. Of course, I can barely understand him so who knows. ugh

23 points yesterday

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
SmartOnes - 4pts
2 string cheese - 2pts
2 WW snack cakes - 2pts
Italian style eggplant - 7pts
salad - 1pt
popcorn - 1pt
Babybel cheese - 2pt
WW coconut candy - 1pt

The hubbs didn't try the new eggplant WW recipe last night. I think he was scared cause it didn't have meat but I thought it was pretty good. Didn't really taste like anything other than the sauce that was on it. And it was quite filling.

Super excited cause I won 2 more Weight Watchers cookbooks on eBay yesterrday! woo hoo

Monday, August 10, 2009

2 weeks

Yesterday marked 2 weeks of no soda/tea!
woo freakin hoo!
I'll admit I was craving a sweet tea from Sonic on Saturday...

I started the day off good but then ended it bad.
30 points is a rough estimate.
We ate at Golden Corral for dinner where I did good until dessert. I had a tiny sliver of cheesecake and 2 bites of carrot cake. It had raisins or I probaby would've ate the whole thing. Otherwise I was good and had a salad, fish and vegetables. And nothing fried.

I don't know where to begin to do points for there so I'm not even gonna try. I'm just gonna chalk it up to a slip up and show you what I had before then:

2 brown eggs - 4pts
1/2 cup raspberries - 0pts
1/2 cup blueberries - 0pts
WW chocolate candy - 1pt
hamburger steak - 4 pts
salad w/FF italian - 1pt
Babybel gouda - 2pts
WW snack cake - 1pt

The really bad part is that I didn't work out at all this weekend. But I busted my ass this morning to try and make up for it... and now I'm exhausted. haha

I didn't fall off the wagon, I just had one slip up. Which really wasn't that bad I don't think. And GC made my stomach sick so I'm pretty sure I'll never be going back anyway!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

25 points yesterday

But I didn't work out. ugh

2 Kashi wheat waffles - 3pts
syrup - 4pts
side salad - 0pts
fat free italian - 0pts
black eyed peas - 3pts
butter beans - 1pt
cabbage - 0pts
veggie mix - 0pts
salad - 1pt
steak w/teriyaki & pineapple - 9pts
chicken flauta - 4pts

We ate out twice yesterday.
I think I did pretty good considering...

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Weekend #2

I'm hoping to do much better this weekend....

25 pts yesterday. I was a snackaholic! ugh

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
steak salad w/ff ranch from Charly's - 7pts
chiquita snack pack carrots w/ff ranch - 1pt
2 WW snack cakes - 2pts
100 cal pack - 2pts
babybel gouda cheese - 2pts
2 servings soup - 8pts

I did my usual 15 in the morning on the elliptical and only 20 in the pm.

Friday, August 7, 2009

crap O la

I've been dieing to try those new Volcano Nachos at Taco Bell.

I couldn't find the nutritional info on their site so I had to Google it.
From what I found, those suckers are 22 points!

I know I'm allowed a 35 point allowance but I just can't see spending it on that!

Once again, it's nice to know I'm getting better at decision making!



Doin' Good!

24 points yesterday.
It's easy some days!

I got some Weight Watchers snack cakes yesterday, lemon and chocolate. Looking at the chocolate ones made me realize I haven't had chocolate since July 27. Holy Cow! And I hadn't even realized I was going without! The Lemon ones are good and the chocolate ones will do if I ever do get a chocolate craving.

I also got a few SmartOnes to try. Wal-Mart didn't have a big variety so I just got 2 with 5 Points values.

I'm super proud of myself and the decision I made yesterday...
We finally got the new gun we've been waiting on and naturally the hubbs was itching to go shoot it, as was I. BUT since I didn't work out the night before I told him he'd have to go without me and I'd have to go this weekend. I totally expected him to say, "You've been doing good, just take a break." but he didn't and I was super proud of him too!

Decisions are getting easier! YAY

I did 15 mins on the elliptical, abs, arms and chest in the AM and 30 mins on elliptical in PM.

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
lean cuisine - 5pts
3 WW snacks - 3pts
Tuscan Chicken - 5pts
1 cup noodles - 7pts

Look at my other blog for the WW Tuscan Chicken recipe. It was super easy and you probably have the stuff already in your pantry! 7 points for noodles? Bad, I know but I can't believe I only ate the serving size and gave the rest to the hubbs!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

day 10

Yesterday was nice.
I never got hunger pains!

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1/2 cup blueberries - 0pts
lean cuisine - 6pts
string cheese - 1pt
box bake - 12pts

total - 22pts

No, I didn't save up all day to eat bad. It just worked out that way. I had thawed out chicken but when I realzied I hadn't used many points I decided to get rid of the last bad thing in the pantry if you know what I mean. And it was dang good! I enjoyed it a lot, knowing I wouldn't have it again in a really long time.

I worked out in the am but not the pm.
And I feel rancid about it this morning...
But nothing I can do about it now.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I just love this!


day 9

Tomorrow is day 10 of no soda/tea.
I think I'm gonna have to celebrate!
Well, maybe I'll wait until the 2 week mark...

The hubbs finally hid the scale from me.
Yes, I was getting on it everyday.
It showed a 4 pound loss in 4 days and I was nervous.
There's no way that could be right.
I know I fluctuate a lot so I need to stay off the scale.
But with everything else I'm not doing, that one is too easy.
So, the hubbs hid it from me and I'll get to weigh on the 29th.

My goal is 5 pounds in 5 weeks.
I realize now I should have made it higher but I think I need to start with baby steps. If I lose this 5 pounds then I will make my next goal to be 2 pounds a week. Which would be 10 pounds in 5 weeks if I reached it and holy cow I would be ecstatic! But let's not jump ahead...

I had 28 points yesterday.
I struggled with going to lunch with Jenny to a mexican restaurant. I'm proud to say I did order salad though and only ate half a serving of chips (which is 5! yes, FIVE whole chips!) I went over with dinner last night cause we had Taco Bell. It takes time to learn what I can and can't have.

I did the elliptical for 30 minutes in the pm. I struggled hard core cause my foot hurt so bad but after about 10 minutes it pretty much went numb and quit hurting. So now I know the trick and no longer have an excuse!

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1 tbsp flax - 1pt
1/2 cup blueberries - 0pts
chips/salsa - 2pts
salad w/chicken - 5pts
italian dressing - 2pts
carrots - 1pt
string cheese - 1pt
burrito - 9pts
taco - 4pts

Tuesday, August 4, 2009


I was skimming through blogs and found a wonderful quote.
Sorry, I don't remember where I found it or I'd share...

"People who are too weak to pursue their own dreams will always find a way to discourage yours."


Didn't work out yesterday...
I did attempt in the pm but my foot was so sore I gave up. It feels a little better today so I'm at least going to go for a walk after work. I just don't want it to stay sore forever!

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1 tbsp flax - 1pt
apple - 1pt
lean cuisine - 6pts
string cheese - 3pts
soup - 8pts
sour cream - 2pts

total - 24pts

Monday, August 3, 2009


I cannot seem to catch a break.
I had another migraine last night.
Pretty sure I've had a headache every day for the last week.

I decided to go to Wal-Mart on my lunch break to get some headache medicine. And guess what? They all have the same amount of caffeine as a cup of coffee! I wanted to cry, right there in the middle of the aisle.

I took Tylenol every day for the last week and it obviously didn't work. So, I'm gonna try naproxen sodium this week.

This is day 8 and I REFUSE to drink tea/soda!
I'm gonna do this!
Even if I pull my hair out in the process!

Day 8

I did much better yesterday than Sunday!

waffle - 2pts
syrup - 2pts
healthy choice - 7pts
2 popcorn - 2pts
soup - 8pts
string cheese - 1pt

total - 22 points

Check out my recipe blog for the soup recipe, it was super yummy! It's only 4 points but I had 2 servings.

I did the elliptical for 30 mins yesterday.
It was a struggle but I pushed through!
I'm gonna have to suck it up and start going to the track or something in the pm because the elliptical is taking a toll on my hips. I really want a treadmill!

I didn't start off this week great...
I slept in because I took a tylenol pm for my headache (guess I'm not over it yet!) last night and didn't work up in time to work out. But I will when I get home this afternoon.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

30 points for yesterday

I was doing sooo good then messed it up with chinese food! But hey, we did bowl 2 games after we ate so maybe I burned some of it. haha

I don't feel super bad about it because I do have the 35 allowance that I'm not even close to going over. But I really do want to start doing better. I've got to learn to start planning my weekends out so I don't get sucked into something bad.

1 pack oatmeal - 2pts
1tbsp flax - 1pt
sandwich - 6pts
sweet sour chicken - 8pts
fried rice - 9pts
mic ultra - 2pts
string cheese - 1pt
fudgesicle - 1pt

I didn't work out yesterday. And now seeing I did 30 points I feel super gross. So, I will be doing something today even though my body is sore as hell from bowling. (I think I'm getting old!)

Saturday, August 1, 2009


That pill I took yesterday gave me a shit ton load of energy.
I mean, like wow!

I'm gonna do a little more reseach on them before I decide to buy though. I don't always trust things that say "all natural."

I thought I was gonna end the day with 15 points.
But the energy kept me up late and the hubbs took me to McDonald's for some nuggets... Hey, at least I didn't get fries!

1 pack oatmeal - 3pts
1 tbsp flax - 1pt
apples w/caramel - 1pt
healthy choice - 5pts
1 cup veggies - 0pts
bbq baked chicken - 5pts
6 piece nugget - 7pts
sweet sour sauce - 1pt

total - 23 points

I did 15 mins on the elliptical in the am. (I only do that few in the am because I also do abs and arms.) I did 20 mins in the pm. I was mad that I couldn't do 30 but I was struggling, and my legs are sore today. boo

Friday, July 31, 2009

5 days

I think I can officially say I've been soda/tea free for 5 days!
I'm super duper excited about this. Seriously!


I was a total snackaholic yesterday.
BUT I didn't go over my points!
I made sure I reached them actually, got all 24!

2 packs oatmeal - 6pts
1 tbsp flax - 1pt
soup - 3pts
apples w/caramel - 2pts
string cheese - 7pts
lean cuisine - 5pts

I did 15 mins on the elliptical in the AM and PM.
I tried to do 30 in the PM but it just wasn't gonna happen.

The real test starts tomorrow morning.
Trying to keep on track during the weekend...
I think I can handle the food but exercise might be hard.
My goal is to at least do it once a day on the weekend.

I've decided my weigh in day will be August 29th.
That will have been 5 weeks.
The goal is 5 pounds.
I'll only set higher goals when I can start reaching small ones.
cross your fingers for me!

This is day 5 with no soda/tea!
I know it sounds dumb to some of you but I dare you to try, it sucks! haha

Club Sun (where I tan) has a new diet pill, it's all natural.
She gave me a sample and I've taken it. Can't wait to see what happens.
I wanted to do it cold turkey but a little push couldn't hurt.
We'll see if it makes me jittery or not, and that will be the decider.

I did want to try Allli again but I don't think I could manage counting fat grams and points. It would get entirely too hard and I really would be deprived. But maybe I'll change my mind over time, depending how it all works out...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Day 4

I'm feeling much better today.
I think I may have finally beat that nasty drug (caffeine).
And btw, I'm mainly doing the no soda/tea for those horrid kidney stones I have. If you've ever had one, you know the pain. They are not something that I want to get bigger or to get more.

I had a teeny tiny headache that pretty much annoyed me all day yesterday but it was nothing compared to Tuesday. So, I do believe the worst is over. (ask the hubbs how I almost killed him when he asked me to get him a glass of sweet tea.)

I only did 15 mins on the elliptical yesterday morning but I did 30 last night. Super proud of myself. The hubbs had never seen me sweat like that (says he)... Those aren't exactly the pointers I want to hear but whatever.

I only had 22 points yesterday.
I know, I know I'm supposed to be eat all 24.
Does having 28 on Tues not make up for it??? haha
I just need to get some 2 pt snacks to keep around...

Bagelful - 4 pts
Salad - 7 pts
Fiber One Bar - 2 pts
3 Tacos - 9 pts

Funny fact -
Those Volcano Tacos I used to eat every day are 19 freakin' points! WOW

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

3rd day

28 points yesterday. oops

1 packet oatmeal - 2pts
1 tbsp flax - 1pt
healthy choice lunch - 6pts
2 string cheese - 4pts
cake - 6pts
3 tacos - 9pts

I did the elliptical for 20 mins in the morning but not in the afternoon. Bad, I know. BUT there was no way I was gonna survive it. My head was about to explode. I think it may have been my first ever migraine. And I'm not entirely sure is was strictly to do with lack of caffeine... I've got to stop letting all the other bad things in my life take a toll on me...

I want to say thanks to those of you who comment, give support, etc. It is extremely appreciated as I get it from no where else. So thank you guys very much!

It is sad to say but at this point it's more about proving everyone wrong than doing it for myself. But who knows, maybe taking it from that angle will work better!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

22 points yesterday

My allowance is 24 so I'm proud of myself!

2 packs oatmeal - 5 pts
1 tbsp flax - 1 pt
2 string cheese - 4 pts
healthy choice - 5 pts
BK tendergrill salad - 7 pts

I struggled, it was a rough day.
The hardest part was no soda. I was doing ok until I went to BK to get our dinner and Kevin wanted a Dr. Pepper. I struggled all the way home, even teared up a little. I should not want something that bad. Seriously. Maybe I shouldn't try to do it cold turkey but I need to set stronger goals or I'll never do this. Ever. I keep telling myself that if I can just do it now that I'll be able to have a sweet tea every night with dinner once I'm healthier.

My WW points calculator is super nifty.
It's gonna make this much easier I think.

I worked out twice yesterday.
15 mins on the elliptical in the morning and then again when I got home. I also did crunches and arms in the afternoon. Yes, I know that doesn't sound like very much but I'm not about to over do it and be sore and then not be able to work out for a few days. And honeslty, my legs are a little sore from just that little bit so I'm glad I didn't do more...

Monday, July 27, 2009


I'm struggling hard core this morning.
I mean, hardfuckingcore!

Prolly because I didn't eat a big dinner.
Then I worked out this morning.
And only had oatmeal for breakfast.

I guess I could have a light snack but I'm trying really hard not to...

& let me just say I'm irritated at how many calories Flax Seed has. I only put 1 tbsp in my oatmeal but it's still annoying. Guess I'll just have to wait and see how many Points it has...

I've started a goal.
No soda or tea. WATER only!
I'll keep you posted on how many days I have under my belt when I get about a week through it.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

I'm back!

I was hoping to get my points calculator in the mail yesterday.
But I didn't. Of course...
So, I'll be writing everything down and catching up when I finally get it.

Right now, I'm super motivated.
Let's just hope it can stay that way for a while...

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Fell off again!

I got a Weight Watchers Points Calculator on Ebay.
Now just waiting on it to come in.
Hopefully it will help me out, a lot.
I've been bad. And I feel bad.
But I still do nothing about it. ugh

I need a workout buddy, anyone game?

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


I shouldn't have bragged yesterday.
I tried the one below today and it was rancid!

1506 for yesterday

If only I would have done without the cranberry juice! dang
I found my cranaberry AZO pills so no more juice!

bicuit holes 260
cran juice 360
kashi 260
ice cream 230
chicken 346 (I don't think that's right!)
green beans 50

30 mins ellipitcal -359

total: 1147

I'm still trying to get a WW Points Calculator off Ebay...
It's not being an easy task!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

nom nom nom

Tried 3 Kashi's so far, all were good so I thought I'd share:


So, I didn't work out yesterday like I said I was going to...

I was just too freakin' tired.
I went home and took a nap.

I'm counting calories today but it won't be good cause I'm still suckin' down cranberry juice...

Monday, June 29, 2009

heads up

I am NOT counting calories today.

Bad, I know.

BUT I'm having to drink cranberry juice. (cause I'm either finally passing a kidney stone or I have a UTI) And the bottle I had this morning was 280 calories! YIKES!

I do intend on going to the track after work.
& if it's raining I will do the elliptical at home!

Friday, June 26, 2009


Well, at least I didn't gain any...

1028 for yesterday

oatmeal 160
Kashi 280
Mr. Misty 120
Soup 468

15 mins elliptical -179

total: 849

I only did the track once this week. Which is not good considering I intended on being able to do it twice a day next week. Right now my plan is to do it once on Monday and Tuesday and hopefully be prepared to do it twice the rest of the week.

I put 3 Weight Watchers recipes on my other blog.
They are super YUMO!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

1261 for Yesterday

oatmeal 160
blueberries 41
2 tacos 400
sweet tea 180
chips/salsa 80
2 tacos 400

15 mins elliptical -179

total: 1082

If only I had ordered water instead of sweet tea... ugh

I got rained out of going to the track.
And yes, I should have done the elliptical at home but I didn't.
I barely want to do it in the mornings.
I'm sooo burnt out on it.
I keep forgetting to ask my boss to sell me her Treadmill...

The scale better be nice to me tomorrow of I'm gonna throw it in the road!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

1212 for Yesterday

oatmeal 320
watermelon 90
peanut butter 90
onion rings 200
subway melt 380
chips 130

15 mins elliptical -179
20 mins track - 213

total: 820 (I like the looks of that!)

I find it really hard to believe that I only burned 213 calories jogging on the track in 99 degree heat, but whatever. And I didn't stop at 20 minutes, it took me 20 minutes to do the track...

My legs hurt so bad last night I could barley move. But thank the heavens they are not sore this morning! I guess all the stretching and scalding bath helped.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

One foot off the wagon...

I was bad yesterday...
No working out.
& no counting calories (cause I knew it was bad).

But my foot is half way back in today.

I'm gonna start going to the track on Post after work.
Jogging in the neighborhood isn't working out. The hills cause my calves to hurt and then I don't do it again until it stops hurting. So I'm gonna try and get some strength in my legs while I can still get on Post and hopefully by the time Kevin's out I can jog the neighborhood without fail.

I have made 3 Weight Watchers recipes so far and the hubbs like em all! How exciting is that???

Friday, June 19, 2009


I lost a pound!
Woot Woot

I'll admit, I was very nervous stepping on that scale.
But a pound lost is better than anything gained!

1323 for Yesterday

oatmeal 160
blueberries 41
lean cuisine 230
cheddar peppers 248
stir fry 644

elliptical 30 mins -359

total: 964

The stir fry was a Weight Watchers recipe and it was hella good! Even the hubbs liked it! I will try to put up the recipe next week. I had 2 servings of course. There was no way I could only eat 1 cup total of food...

Thursday, June 18, 2009

1290 for yesterday

Could have been better had I gotten a salad at Red Lobster...
I did do the elliptical for 30 mins.
& I regret it, my legs are on FIRE today!

cupcake 270
chicken & shrimp 390
biscuits 300
stuffed mushrooms 130
taco 170
veggies 30

elliptical -359

total: 931

I'm gonna go ahead and predict that I the scale is not gonna be nice tomorrow.

Good news: My husband who only drinks Mt. Dew heard something about high fructose corn syrup and seriously told me he wasn't going to drink it anymore. I don't believe him but time will tell I guess. I asked him if he was not gonna eat anything that had it in it and he doesn't think too many things have it, but I'm gonna show him just how much. haha

Supposedly the Mt. Dew Throwback doesn't have it but that's only out for a limited time I think...???

He wanted to know wtf I was gonna be cooking since he only seen 2 things of hamburger meat in the fridge after my grocery store trip. I told him CHICKEN! As long as I don't let it get boring I think he'll tolerate it.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

1300 for Yesterday

Well, that's a little better!

oatmeal 320
kashi frozen meal 320
peanut butter 90
apples w/caramel 140
cheeseburger 430

I haven't worked out all week! UGH
But I will today when I get home!

Kevin is on leave so he's not getting up early and I just can't bring myself to get out of bed that early when he's still in it!

I was super surprised that the Kashi lunch was good yesterday. It's all natural and it was amazing that the chicken actually tasted like chicken and not cardboard! They are kinda expensive (cheaper than eating out though!) but that one was definitely worth it. I have another to try later this week.

We'll be going out to lunch today for a co-workers birthday. I'm gonna try my hardest to only order a salad...

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

1656 for Yesterday

Well, didn't I start my week off great?
Last night was the last night we eat out for a while! ugh

biscuit 280
2 eggs 199
2 bacon 70
lean cuisine 340
blueberries 41
fried rice 726

total: 1656

and I didn't work out...

I have to go grocery shopping tonight.
I'm gonna go through my Weight Watchers cookbook.
Hopefully I can find something yummy!

Friday, June 12, 2009


Lovely way to start my weekend.
A 4 oz gain instead of a loss! ugh

Can I PLEASE blame it on my cycle??? lol

Kevin and I went to Miyori last night and I'm not even gonna attempt to count the calories, I know it's not good. I will see how many I had to spare though...

oatmeal 320
double decker taco 350
1 tbsp peanut butter 90

15 mins elliptical -179

total: 581

I'm pretty sure I ate more than 619 calories last night.
Between the sushi, shrimp, veggies and lots of rice, it's not looking good.
But hey, I did drink WATER!

I hope I don't gain 5 pounds being at my parent's this weekend.
That would suck major ass! Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I looked into Weight Watchers yesterday.
I'm allowed 24 points a day and a 35 point allowance a week.
I'm trying to find a place to get the books I need to show how many points everything is...

I just really think that would be easier for me than counting calories.
I guess trial and error is the only way to find out.
But, I can't do anything until I find the books. Ebay here I come!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

1420 for Yesterday

Ugh, I suck at this.
At least it's better than yesterday...

sweet tea 180
grilled cheese 380
taco 200
rice 100
sweet tea 180
lasagna 380

15 mins elliptical -179

Total: 1241

Does anyone else think it's impossible to burn more calories than you eat?

I'm dreading the scale tomorrow morning... ugh

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Uh Oh

I'm eating out for lunch and was trying to plan ahead...

Found out the Volcano taco from Taco Bell that I had about 4 times last week has 800 calories! HOLY SHIT, and I wonder why I'm fat!?

I'll be getting the double decker taco supreme that's only 350.
Hope it feels me up...

1448 for Yesterday

I quite obviously went over.
But dang I didn't know until this morning that a freakin steak was 600 calories! WOW

chocolate cupcake 160
7 almonds 43
turkey wrap 78
1/2 cup raspberries 32
1/2 cup blueberries 41
1 tbsp peanut butter 180
steak 600
noodles 280
1 cup cauliflower 34

15 mins elliptical -179
15 min jog - 159

Total: 1110
I've really got to start burning more!
That 15 min jog sure as hell felt like it burnt a million calories!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

1138 for Yesterday

Glad I had some to spare because I'm not certain exactly how many calories were in the chili I ate. As with other things, I have to guestimate sometimes.

oatmeal 320
1/2 cup raspberries 32
1/2 cup blueberries 41
turkey lettuce wrap 78
2 chocolate cupcapes 320
raisins 45
1/2 cup bluberries 41
homemade chili 261

Yeah, just think how many calories I could've spared without the cupcakes! I couldn't help it, they were the best I've ever made! I know not to make them very often anymore.

I struggled yesterday, if you can't tell by all the snacks.
I've got to start experimenting with more filling foods.

I only did cardio yesterday morning. -179 calories

Monday, June 8, 2009


How is it that I always manage to decided I'm gonna start this process the week I start my cycle?

Wow, this is gonna be tough...
But I'm not gonna use it as an excuse this time.
Nope, I'm sure not.

I wasn't good this weekend, at all.
(I said I'd start Monday... haha)
I figured I might as well enjoy it while I can.
I've decided on a lifestyle change so I might as well suck it up.

For a first day, I'm certainly struggling.
My lunch was good but it dang sure didn't feel me up.
I used 2 slices of turkey, 2 slices of tomato and some mustard and wrapped it up in 2 leaves of lettuce. I don't think I could eat it every day but it's something new I know I can tolerate.

The only thing holding me over is I'm going to a friend's house for dinner and she's making chili that I don't know is how unhealthy so I'm trying to save as many calories as I can...

I want to try WeightWatchers.
I just don't want to pay for it.
Can someone tell me how many points I can have?
And where I can get the points book thingy?
Please and Thank You!

I got onto to make calorie counting easier.
It put me at 1200 calorie diet, which I have done before.
I want to lose 2 pounds a week.
I did it while on Alli, just not sure if I can do it without.

I am taking some pills, but I doubt they work...
Simply because I've taken plenty of different ones and only had success with Alli. But anyway, after this bottle I don't think I'm gonna take anymore. If I start eating healthier and not trying to cheat I'm hoping to be more successful.

I do have a helpful situation at my hands.
I've been noticing a certain someone staring at my GUT when we have a conversation. Hers is not any smaller than mine so I am bound and determine to give her something to look at! ugh

Friday, June 5, 2009


I got on the scale for the first time in about a month.
I was fully prepared for it to say "FATASS!".
But it was much nicer than I expected.
I was glad to see that I hadn't gone over my highest weight.
Yes, I know it's very close.

Starting Monday I will use this blog to keep count of all my calories and exercise.

I've got to learn how to stay on the wagon this time.
Lord knows I've fallen off EVERY time.

Join me in my journey, feel free to leave any helpful tips.