tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78355827043194675792024-02-07T05:33:01.446-08:00My Never Ending QuestKeeping up with my weightloss journey.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.comBlogger252125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-14052698144304515642012-04-28T06:03:00.001-07:002012-04-28T06:03:43.934-07:0004/27 162 lbs<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkaoqiJA4BC8OxnNhha0svqNiwcIBcTy_G1T-7qOS7xOEBHiHVvmwKCHeujIwSlxhXV5kOfBOHgyWDp7BE33kcE6xJtMVnW38-xoF2ryWNNNa3DHUR_2Ib_V7zVDDcnYxeMPS_4qb0w57c/s640/blogger-image--265588587.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkaoqiJA4BC8OxnNhha0svqNiwcIBcTy_G1T-7qOS7xOEBHiHVvmwKCHeujIwSlxhXV5kOfBOHgyWDp7BE33kcE6xJtMVnW38-xoF2ryWNNNa3DHUR_2Ib_V7zVDDcnYxeMPS_4qb0w57c/s640/blogger-image--265588587.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOB4f2n-WMPjlC6yk8SABb8moF1yaHbuZ_FB_Tf-Pq5IPJ1ijJ73BYUW5i8BWBkjGKSDB0_Lzm3UAcD4Vsd8aU2mWYn2rCgkLcZgNOnTGaw25eKLHzgn0kZAOQ08k0qa3AL1YEGfoy6gjt/s640/blogger-image-1563690910.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOB4f2n-WMPjlC6yk8SABb8moF1yaHbuZ_FB_Tf-Pq5IPJ1ijJ73BYUW5i8BWBkjGKSDB0_Lzm3UAcD4Vsd8aU2mWYn2rCgkLcZgNOnTGaw25eKLHzgn0kZAOQ08k0qa3AL1YEGfoy6gjt/s640/blogger-image-1563690910.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgO0gYnWZPfKRLYvAopLnfR67Uo_YGi8sUH9yPkv5JxYjhJ4FNCiC9bcI3zFyyNxN0QrMAfi0vW8FL-xFSfuM3tdaBrZ-03pLcVotwxJ9gSS9fFr_sxYyIuUIrVCJrq57Jk_z2HgVv5Mwhs/s640/blogger-image-219154625.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgO0gYnWZPfKRLYvAopLnfR67Uo_YGi8sUH9yPkv5JxYjhJ4FNCiC9bcI3zFyyNxN0QrMAfi0vW8FL-xFSfuM3tdaBrZ-03pLcVotwxJ9gSS9fFr_sxYyIuUIrVCJrq57Jk_z2HgVv5Mwhs/s640/blogger-image-219154625.jpg" /></a></div>JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-35519583513325868292012-04-26T20:22:00.001-07:002012-04-26T20:22:27.609-07:0004/26<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifYayyPjuADVwedtt3TJCiSrHWn6M3xsioknWR29oWUiPNDXApXULPrQfbYFWkykENcBn3MA0Hv2M0R1PrUNizjnHmvb-jg_sZ1ybe0Sw4-MRvvntL8pMAeM5u4eae2IvwlC8Ge6N3X3z-/s640/blogger-image--1381577450.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifYayyPjuADVwedtt3TJCiSrHWn6M3xsioknWR29oWUiPNDXApXULPrQfbYFWkykENcBn3MA0Hv2M0R1PrUNizjnHmvb-jg_sZ1ybe0Sw4-MRvvntL8pMAeM5u4eae2IvwlC8Ge6N3X3z-/s640/blogger-image--1381577450.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHIontjKsnnwvMaTGi_sZsYvcpW6KZ7_CAe1fm-xGS_fle3ja57W2eJOeQKxe-TA3lSA_PAZxcQpkF6ap4YBgFGGGYAeswbB84pG-ytFzfIlc5cYSVRwfRd1N8NHyiQ_gEuW9_HYRUbCqN/s640/blogger-image-39794840.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHIontjKsnnwvMaTGi_sZsYvcpW6KZ7_CAe1fm-xGS_fle3ja57W2eJOeQKxe-TA3lSA_PAZxcQpkF6ap4YBgFGGGYAeswbB84pG-ytFzfIlc5cYSVRwfRd1N8NHyiQ_gEuW9_HYRUbCqN/s640/blogger-image-39794840.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9O3YvRNfHNiGnmyo0nxmfVJKQY3GqXxVS3RYNYGojimfsqPAde1G2QVLiEjAH30yJSyZyWC4c2kRIWp3vaPe4mUcEduhP4KmkZr4gnELDLk3Xnm5A_9QTwUZDe-tS2ZDuiHquHY0bCqaN/s640/blogger-image--2025221333.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9O3YvRNfHNiGnmyo0nxmfVJKQY3GqXxVS3RYNYGojimfsqPAde1G2QVLiEjAH30yJSyZyWC4c2kRIWp3vaPe4mUcEduhP4KmkZr4gnELDLk3Xnm5A_9QTwUZDe-tS2ZDuiHquHY0bCqaN/s640/blogger-image--2025221333.jpg" /></a></div>JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-26300028678239600722012-04-26T05:27:00.001-07:002012-04-26T05:30:40.820-07:00165Gonna try and keep up with this again. Here's my food journal for yesterday. <br />
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& you know what that means.<br />
It means I'm going back to the Aspen clinic to get phentermine.<br />
Say/think what you will.<br />
I realized that it was completely foolish of me to stop taking it before I reached my goal. <br />
You read that right, I will take it until I reach my goal of 140.<br />
Gaining 5 pounds at 140 is a lot easier to take than gaining 5 at 152.<br />
I am starting to get depressed about it and that is not okay.<br />
Since I've been working out, I know I will not lose weight for a while.<br />
& that only fucks with my head that much more.<br />
My appt. is next Tuesday. <br />
If I gain anymore weight before then I will have a fucking stroke!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-47324145060184383682012-01-04T18:08:00.000-08:002012-01-04T18:08:53.967-08:00This Week's RoutineObviously, I skipped Monday.<br />
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But, I started yesterday and that's better than not starting at all!<br />
<br />
Here is my routine for this week:<br />
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</div>I cannot do pushups (boyf is gonna teach me) so I do planks.<br />
I don't know what burpees are so I do extra crunches.<br />
It takes me about 15 minutes.<br />
<br />
I know it doesn't seem like a lot.<br />
I just wanted something to get me started and loosened up.<br />
& I promise you that I am sore as fuck!<br />
Tomorrow is day 3 (you know, the worst day) and I'm dreading it.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-38710843273219542682012-01-03T15:58:00.000-08:002012-01-03T15:58:08.909-08:00152I hit 152 on Dec. 23.<br />
Was a marvelous Christmas gift!<br />
<br />
I am no longer taking phentermine.<br />
<br />
Started working out this morning.<br />
<br />
Up the hill again...JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-39119683548355333532011-10-14T08:53:00.000-07:002011-10-14T08:55:18.851-07:00155I was so happy to see this number on the scale this morning!<br />
<br />
I have lost 21 pounds in 13 weeks.<br />
(32 since I began this journey in December 2009)<br />
<br />
I had a rough few weeks and jumped back up to 160, <br />
but I made it back down.<br />
<br />
My lowest around this time last year was 154 so I'm pretty excited!<br />
<br />
I haven't been taking the phentermine religiously. <br />
<br />
Some days I only take a half and some days I don't take any at all.<br />
<br />
I'm going to try next week to take a half every day and then after that only a half every other day. I want to slowly pull myself off of it because it's not working very well since I only have about 10 pounds left to lose and I don't want to go back to the fat doctor.<br />
<br />
Ahhh, when will this ever end?!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-51181476361604896522011-09-28T08:23:00.000-07:002011-09-28T08:23:20.987-07:003rd Appt at Aspen ClinicThis appt was not as wonderful as the last, but I knew that going in.<br />
<br />
I gained 2 lbs over the weekend but their scale still showed a 5 lb loss from my last visit 5 weeks ago. Good news is, all 5 lbs was fat and not muscle or water. <br />
<br />
BMI went from 26.0 to 25.2<br />
BMR went from 1571 to 1549<br />
Fat % went from 39.1 to 37.1 (goal 21-33%)<br />
Fat Mass went from 65 to 59.5 (goal 28-52)<br />
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The doctor suggested drink white grapefruit juice. He says it helps the phentermine work harder to break fat. Kinda confused as I've always been told fruit juice is bad when trying to lose weight but I guess I'll try anything at this point. <br />
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The treadmill was moved into my room this weekend but I only used it Monday. It didn't get used Tuesday. <br />
<br />
Ohhh, what I would give to find some motivation!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-71166546951913065612011-09-05T19:21:00.000-07:002011-09-05T19:21:49.597-07:00162I've been stuck on 162 for about a week now.<br />
<br />
& I haven't been eating right. <br />
The phentermine is making me not hungry at all. <br />
Which it has not done before. <br />
I haven't been eating since I haven't been hungry.<br />
I know this is not good and it's going to backfire, <br />
but I've had so much going on that I haven't been able to focus.<br />
<br />
I'm really considering joining a gym next week when I get paid. <br />
Only if I can find one with no contract or a small one. <br />
<br />
Follow my twitter for more frequent updates.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-89508320018326507932011-08-23T11:53:00.000-07:002011-08-23T11:53:36.078-07:002nd appt at Aspen Clinic recapI had my 2nd appointment at the Aspen Clinic (the fat doctor) today. <br />
<br />
It was a very successful appointment. It put me in a wonderful mood!<br />
<br />
I've lost 11 pounds in 4 weeks. <br />
I didn't believe this was going to be good but apparently it is.<br />
I've lost 22 pounds total since starting this journey.<br />
Still have about 20 to go. <br />
<br />
My BMI went from 27.8 to 26.0<br />
BMR from 1621 to 1571<br />
Fat % from 40.6 to 39.1 (goal is 21-33%)<br />
Fat Mass from 72 to 65 (goal is 28-52 lbs)<br />
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The doctor was very encouraging. He brought to light that I've lost 11 pounds even though I didn't do anything they advised. I haven't been keeping a food journal. I watch my portions but not what I eat. I haven't been exercising. I've even been drinking caffeine. <br />
<br />
Now lets all imagine the outcome had I been doing this the correct way. <br />
Yeah, I pretty much want to punch myself.<br />
Lesson learned. <br />
<br />
JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-45822206594739587602011-07-31T18:04:00.000-07:002011-07-31T18:04:01.670-07:00169It was such a relief to see no 7 on the scale this morning.<br />
<br />
I've lost 7 pounds in 9 days. <br />
If I keep this trend up I will be good to go.<br />
<br />
I'm going to try really hard to start exercising tomorrow.<br />
I am scared to death it's going to make the scale stop moving though.<br />
<br />
Yes, I know I should throw the scale away but I just can't.<br />
Not yet anyway...JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-9100751107395455022011-07-23T11:17:00.000-07:002011-07-23T11:17:22.865-07:00for the millionth timeWell, I made the decision to go back to a fat doctor for some pills. I know a lot of people don't agree with this. But me? I don't agree with all the fad diets. I need a lifestyle change and only pills can help with that. I'm hoping that one month will give me the boost I need to get back on track but two is my max.<br />
<br />
I chose the Aspen Clinic in Baton Rouge as I have a friend that goes there and my boss has been. Both gave me good reviews. And of course, it had to be better than the ghetto place I was going to in Alabama.<br />
<br />
My appointment was at 8:15. On a Saturday, yes it sucked. I have been throught the process before so I was mostly bored and not learning anything new. But they did have a nifty body composition scale that I paid $35 to use. BUT I can use if for a year. It told me all kinds of things. Most of which I didn't want to know.<br />
<br />
BMI: 27.8 (this is not ok, this is obese and I was not prepared for that)<br />
BMR: 1621 (this is how many calories my body burns, I was put on a 1200 calorie diet)<br />
Fat %: 40.6 (that sounds like a lot huh? I need to be 21-33%)<br />
Fat Mass: 72 lbs (I need to be 28-52 lbs)<br />
FFM: 105.5 lbs (I forget exactly but this is what I'd weigh without fat basically)<br />
<br />
The nurse told me I could have a goal weight of 110 pounds. This floored me and does not seem realistic at all. I told her I think my goal is 145, if I want lower when I reach there then so be it. <br />
<br />
The doctor told me to throw my scale away and only weigh once a month at my office visit. I just do not know if I can do this, but I'm gonna try. <br />
<br />
I relearned all the usuals. Like write down everything you eat. Only drink water. Watch your portions. yada yada yada. I know all this, I just need the motivation to do it. <br />
<br />
And let me explain to you why I need the help of pills. I'm not just an emotional eater. I'm an anytime eater. I'll eat just because there's food. I'll eat all of what's in front of me even if I'm not hungry. I've been like that for as long as I can remember. I just love food. The trick is, learning to love healthier foods. <br />
<br />
I was told to avoid all fried foods for the first month to boost up the fat loss. I'm very anxious to not only see if I can do this, but see if it works.<br />
<br />
I'm not going to try and do anything drastic. That falls under fad diet to me. I just have to learn to make better choices, and not all at once. <br />
<br />
And since I haven't been getting any excercise they advised me to start with 3 days a week at 30 mins for the first 2 weeks. I think this is a good idea because I know I will get burnt out quick at first. Though doc did advise that I march quickly in place for 5 mins twice a day to get my muscles on a routine. This was a new idea and I'm anxious to try it out. <br />
<br />
I weigh 176 right now. My goal is 145 so I only made a short term goal since that is only 31 lbs<br />
<br />
My goal is to be 145 by October 31, a little over 3 months.<br />
<br />
Wish me luck!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-9359225538378550462011-06-22T13:58:00.000-07:002011-06-22T14:01:26.798-07:00173I thought I was slowing putting the weight back on, but I didn't realize it was 10 pounds.<br />
<br />
I was in denial until I started seeing it in my face again.<br />
<br />
And I hate myself for it. I am so disgusted.<br />
<br />
I went through the backlog of this blog and was devastated.<br />
<br />
I've been struggling on this journey for 2 years!<br />
<br />
I only need to lose about 40 pounds.<br />
<br />
There's no way that should take 2 years.<br />
<br />
I should have accomplished it in 6 months!<br />
<br />
I don't even know what to do. Or say.<br />
<br />
I just know it's struck a deep nerve.<br />
<br />
Deeper than it has ever struck.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-10789451366514771292011-05-24T06:54:00.000-07:002011-05-24T06:54:01.911-07:00163The last few times I've weighed, my lovely scale has said 163.<br />
<br />
And though I'm proud it's relatively low and consistent, <br />
I still wish it said 153 like it did not too long ago.<br />
<br />
Thinking I gained 10 lbs when I only had 10 to go makes me want to vomit. <br />
<br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;">27 days until summer.</span><br />
I've been in my bathing suit 4 times already.<br />
No, it wasn't a pretty sight.<br />
I'm so disgusted with myself.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-41524336677477661392011-05-12T12:29:00.000-07:002011-05-13T13:28:48.444-07:00170I'm back up to 170.<br />
<br />
I'm on week 3 of no sodas.<br />
<br />
I'm so sick of being fat.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-43833499468506540802011-04-26T07:10:00.000-07:002011-04-26T07:10:57.634-07:00Day OneI got on the treadmill last night. <br />
A whole 30 minutes.<br />
BUT I did an incline, which I normally don't do.<br />
<br />
It's all about starting slow.<br />
I'm not trying to kill myself.<br />
<br />
I also went without soda yesterday. <br />
You all know how big of a feat <em>that</em> is. <br />
<br />
& I only had sweet tea with lunch.<br />
<br />
I haven't decided if I'm gonna give up sweet tea all together yet.<br />
I do know it won't be until I've successfully given up soda.<br />
<br />
Baby steps. Baby steps.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-75674840998461309182011-04-10T19:23:00.000-07:002011-04-10T19:23:17.245-07:00165This blog stresses me out.<br />
<br />
I say I'm gonna do stuff, <br />
but then I don't. <br />
<br />
So, I'm not gonna say I'm doing anything until I do it.<br />
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Wish me luck!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-84666910181774075192011-03-28T09:57:00.000-07:002011-03-28T09:57:52.474-07:00I'm back<div align="center"><span style="font-size: large;">& I'm ready to get serious.</span></div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I've been on and off the phentermine </div><div align="center">but it's no longer working.</div><div align="center">I have 10 days left and then it's gone.</div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I've made it a personal mission </div><div align="center">to worry more about exercising</div><div align="center">than about what I eat.</div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I know for a fact that I can basically eat what I want</div><div align="center">when I'm working out.</div><div align="center">So, it's time to put that to use. </div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">Yes, I'm still gonna watch what I eat.</div><div align="center">I just won't be so fanatical about it</div><div align="center">as long as I'm getting my exercise.</div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">Im going to start getting up at 6am</div><div align="center">and getting on the treadmill.</div><div align="center">& I'm going to try and do my cardio dvd at night.</div><div align="center">BUT, I won't fret about missing my nightime workout</div><div align="center">so long as I did my morning one. </div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I want to get into better habits.</div><div align="center">I don't want this to be temporary.</div><div align="center">I want it to be part of my life routine.</div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I'm going to give up soda and tea again.</div><div align="center">The dark sodas will be hard.</div><div align="center">Tea, not so much since it's hard to find good tea here. </div><div align="center"><br />
</div><div align="center">I'm hoping and praying I can stick with this. </div><div align="center">I'm sick of being miserable.</div>JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-18510418767003719192011-03-09T09:29:00.001-08:002011-03-09T09:29:46.653-08:00164<div style="text-align: left;">Just a little not say I've lost a few pounds.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Back down to 164.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I only took the phentermine for 2 weeks because I got sick.</div><div style="text-align: left;">I've been off it for a week.</div><div style="text-align: left;">I'm going to start it again on Monday.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I still have yet to work out.</div><div style="text-align: left;">I'm such a slacker. ugh</div>JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-5722702308325581592011-02-10T13:19:00.000-08:002011-02-10T13:19:52.587-08:00lil updateI didn't throw out my scale...<br />
BIG SHOCKER!<br />
<br />
The more I thought about it, <br />
the more I realized I need that reminder.<br />
Because <strong>HELLO</strong> 15 lbs jumped on within a blink.<br />
<br />
I was going to go back to the fat doctor.<br />
But I couldn't go back to my old one.<br />
(half the nurses are friends w/the ex.)<br />
Turns out I'm outta luck. I waited too long.<br />
I can't get in to see one until March 2.<br />
I'll be in LA by then...<br />
<br />
I took it as a sign, that I need to do this myself.<br />
I need to make lifestyle changes.<br />
<br />
Today started water day.<br />
No more calories from drinks. <br />
Baby steps people.<br />
<br />
Once I get settled in LA, <br />
I will be setting goals for myself.<br />
<br />
Yes, I know I tend to not keep them.<br />
But I still need them.<br />
I have way more motivation this time.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-76733696636777587642011-02-07T14:12:00.001-08:002011-02-07T14:12:22.057-08:00Ohhh ANDDon't expect any updates on this blog until about March.<br />
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You know, after the <strong>BIG MOVE</strong>! (:JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-54504613743577151032011-02-07T12:21:00.000-08:002011-02-07T12:21:16.428-08:00Big Decision MadeI've made the decision to chunk my scale.<br />
<br />
I'm going to end up in a mental institution if I keep getting on it<br />
and see the number go up and up. <br />
<br />
I look at myself and do not see a 15 lb gain.<br />
So it may not be the <em>best</em> idea to get rid of the scale.<br />
<br />
But I'm going to start measuring myself. <br />
<br />
And maybe, just maybe this ordeal has been so difficult<br />
because I'm focused on the number...<br />
I just want to look at myself and be happy.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-50240627007406493892011-02-07T07:03:00.000-08:002011-02-07T07:03:21.110-08:00170I'm not lieing.<br />
<br />
I've gained 15 lbs in 5 weeks.<br />
That's 3 lbs a week.<br />
<br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I am devasted.</span><br />
<br />
I don't feel or look like I've gained it back.<br />
idk what's going on, but it sucks. hard core.JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-17325518288327181112011-01-31T05:53:00.001-08:002011-01-31T05:53:37.284-08:00167Yes, I cried. <br />
This is getting ridiculous.<br />
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Gym every day this week!JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7835582704319467579.post-73502205780543449052011-01-26T10:25:00.000-08:002011-01-26T10:26:08.944-08:00sore as a mofoMarianne dragged me to the gym last night. <br />
I was not feeling it. At all.<br />
<br />
& to make it worse there were no treadmills available.<br />
Which means I had to get on the elliptical.<br />
Yall know how much I haaate the elliptical.<br />
<br />
BUT apparently it's what I need to start using.<br />
I was sweating. I never sweat. <br />
(I'm talking about sweat rolling off my face sweat. )<br />
& I doubled the distance I did on the treadmill in 30 mins.<br />
<br />
So, even though I'm sore as a mofo, <br />
I will be back on the elliptical tonight.<br />
<br />
recap: 30 mins elliptical<br />
miles: 2.8<br />
total miles for 2011: 4.2JBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13108750302966779153noreply@blogger.com0