Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Back on Track! srsly

I'm for real.
I'm ready to get serious!

I just realized that last 3 months have been pointless.
I haven't lost weight.
I could have lost these last 30 lbs in 3 months.

I was 158 Aug 9th
Back to 163 on Monday, Aug 30th
isn't that wonderful?
I was 166 in June...

Anyway, I'm going to be focusing hard core on this blog.
I think I need to pay attention to details and start seeing things in black and white.

My goal is to be 140 by Nov. 29th.
That would be the best birthday present EVER!

I just have to get my priorities straight.
Yes, I know I've said it a million times.
Maybe, just maybe, it will work this time!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Let's Get Physical

I was gonna get on the treadmill yesterday.
Thought about it all day.
But did I?
Of course not!

Anyone have any motivation pointers?!?

Friday, August 27, 2010

bad mood

I woke up this morning and something hit me...

I realized I haven't lost weight in almost 2 months.

I was doing so good with everything and then I ended up in the hospital. I'm trying not to make excuses, but everyone does it, don't point fingers at me.

I want another bottle of phentermine. So bad.
Luckily the bestie reminded me that it hadn't been working.
It was keeping me from eating everything I could get my hands on but it was not helping to move the weight.

I had 2 competitions going on.
I have to weigh in on Monday for both of them.
I am positive I lost them both.

I have to get serious.
I know, I mean really know, the trick is working out.
I just have to get my head wrapped back around that.

No, I haven't been to the gym since that first time.
Right now I have no idea why I even joined.
I knew I didn't like going to the gym on my own.
BUT, I've got to suck it up and grow some balls.

I need to set some life goals.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Picture Time

Feb 2010 - July 2010 - Aug 2010

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

1st Gym Session ReCap

Yesterday was my first day at Gold's Gym.
Or maybe I should say last night, 7pm...

First things first, the girl was dumb.
I mean she was too shy and awkward.
But at the very end I found out she wasn't even a trainer yet so I felt slightly better about that situation.

Their scale had me at 161 lbs
31.2% body fat (which is close to the obese range!)
45% water (it should be about 50)

We wrote my goals as:
140 lbs
25% body fat

Naturally, they are all about having you dish out money for Personal Trainers so I did not get very much help. And what she did show me was stuff I could do at home. Which pissed me off. Hard core. Apparently I'm gonna have to figure out how to use all the machines by myself.

She showed me arm and ab workouts with the ball.
I am so sore today it is unreal!
Beaty is Pain, I'm gonna start living by that.

She preached the same thing I've heard before,
"Only work out each muscle group once a week, except abs."
I'm going to try to stick with this.

Right now my goal is 3 days a week to the gym.
One day arms and chest,
one day legs and butt,
one day shoulders and back.
Abs every day of course.
I want to shoot for Mon Wed Fri but 3 days is 3 days at this point.

I'm gonna give it 2 weeks and see what happens.
If I need to consider a personal trainer, then I will. Temporarily.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Cha Cha Cha Changes

I've made a few big decisions lately...

- No More Fat Doctor
Which ultimately means no more shots or phentermine.
I decided the shots may very well be the cause of my kidney stones and I refuse to go through that again if I can help it.
I went through 3 bottles of phentermine.
I originally said I was only going to do 2, then it started working sooo good so by the end of the 2nd bottle I got another. And guess what? It quit working as good, of course. Part of me wants to get one more bottle to help with this last 20 lbs. But the other part of me realizes that if I don't stop now then it is just going to become a viscous circle.
I will be saving about $140 a month with this decision. WOW!

- No More Soda or Tea
Yes, I slacked up and was drinking Sprite and Mt. Dew.
And then I drifted into Sweet Tea again. Tea will be easier to get rid of, again, because of the kidney stones but I'm gonna miss my caffeine...
Don't get me wrong, I still drink water like a fish.
It's just one of those things I think about and realize I did it once, I can do it again and stick to it this time.

- Joined Gold's Gym
I'll be honest here and admit there are ulterior motives other than the obvious.
Like cheaper tanning, and putting myself in an environment w/hot juiced men.
But I also joined because I need help with strength and toning.
(that $140 a month from fat doctor is prob gonna go into paying a personal trainer)
I have my initial assessment Monday at 7pm.
I'm dreading my body fat percentage...

On another note I bought a pair of jeans today.
I've been putting it off and putting it off because I don't want to go shopping, lose weight and possibly drop 2 pants sizes and have new clothes I can't wear. BUT the size 14 jeans I have now are ridiculous, like fall to my knees.
I grabbed a size 9 and crossed my fingers...
They fit. They are a teeny bit snug but I look at that as wiggle room if I lose a few pounds.
So, my weekend is off to a good start!

p.s. I don't want people to think I judge weight by pounds or sizes. This is my personal journey, every one's is different. Hell, I may be stuck in a size 9 forever, and that's fine with me as long as I "look" the way I want to. Same thing with pounds. I'm not gonna get discouraged with the scale since I'm going to be weight training at the gym now. Again, it's about the "look" not the "number." I urge you to be the same way.

Monday, August 16, 2010


I didn't weigh in this morning.
I've had a pretty eventful past few days.
And if you really want to know,
I didn't have a bowel movment from Tuesday morning until 9:30 last night.
Yeah, that's why I didn't weigh.
I knew it was gonna be bad.

I was doing sooo good with everything.
And then, BAM, something has to go wrong.
But I intend on getting back on track today.

I'm going to take another pic on the 25th.
Kinda anxious for that, gonna make it a monthly (4 week) ritual...

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

dang treadmill

I've never really paid attention to the treadmill when it comes to how many calories it says I have burned...

Until last night.
I was 15 mins into it.
I had ran 5, walked 5, ran 5.
It said I had burned 150 calories.
Immediately I realized that was not normal.
I usually run 5 then walk 25 and it says 140 at the end of that!

So, apparently the trick is to run?!?

I have never been a runner.
And I was fine with that.
But it seems I am capable of running now.
My knees and hips couldn't handle the stress before...
Since I don't have shin splints today I'm gonna work on running.
Maybe that will speed up this process a little bit.

I'm completely obsessed with this.
It is driving my friends crazy.
And I do apologize.
But when I am 18 lbs away from my goal I can't just sit back and be patient.

Jenny told me I'm the skinniest I have been since she's known me. Which is 3 1/2 years. That made me happy. And got me to thinking. I'm right there, or close to the weight I was when the ex and I got together... How ironic?

Monday, August 9, 2010


Only down 1 pound.
But at least it's down and not the same or UP!

I did good with working out, just check out my Twitter.
I did skip on Thursday and Saturday tho...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Motivation Found!

I found some motivation.
I wouldn't consider it the healthy kind, but hell, it's motivation.
I'll take what I can get!

I worked so hard on my abs that I shouldn't be able to move today.
But is that the case? Nope, they don't hurt at all. UGH

Tuesday, August 3, 2010


I did some backlogging on this blog.
& found some pretty disturbing info.

June 5, 2009 : I weighed 175 lbs

December 28, 2009 : I weighed 187 lbs
and vowed to lose 40 by June 2010

January 2010 : I weighed 185

April 2010 : I got down to 180

May 2010 : 171

June 2010 : 166 (only 21 lbs lost of 40)

July 2, 2010: 160

August 2, 2010 : 159

This process took waaay too long.
Healthy weightloss is 2 lbs a week. Let's say that's 8 lbs a month.
Basically, I could've reached my goal in 6 months.
But no, here it is 14 months later and I have still have 19 lbs to go.

You'd think that'd be enough motivation, right?
Right. I'm struggling. Hard effing core.

bummed out

I thought I was gonna do good yesterday.
I was wrong.

I laid on the floor while watching Bachelorette.
I'd do some abs, lay some more, do some abs, lay some more.

& that was it.
I didn't even get on the treadmill.

I do not know what is wrong with me but I've got to find some motivation from somewhere.

I went and got another shot yesterday.
I swear to you it is making me feel like I'm starving. lovely.

I know I have a treadmill but I think I'm gonna have to join the gym.
Even if it's just for a month to get me into a routine...

Monday, August 2, 2010


The scale finally decided to move.
woo hoo!

Today was the day to do it.
I start a little competition w/2 diff friends.
Hopefully that will prove to be the motivation I need.

I am changing my goals.
Yes, I know I said I don't care about the number so much anymore.
But, I want my new goal to be 140.
I remember weighing 145ish when I was goin to the gym in Jax.
So I'm thinking I can get down to 140.

If I don't, and I'm happy w/how I look then that's fine.

But for now, I still have 19 pounds to go.

& I didn't even do enough to recap you on that...