Monday, May 24, 2010


3 lbs lost.
How? I'm not sure...
I didn't get a shot last week.
And I didn't work out while on vacation.
Unless you count all the walking...
But I'm not complaining.

I'm not going to get a shot today either.
Want to test out the "I can do it without" theory for another week.

Monday, May 17, 2010


Apparenly there was no reason to be nervous.
Because it seems I'm stuck at 174.

In the back of my head I have this horrid fear that I'll be stuck there forever, just like with 180.
But then I remind myself that I totally slacked off with exercise last week.
And I'll just be thankful that I didn't gain any.

I'm ready to be back from New Mexico so I can buy a digital scale.
Which I keep wavering on because I threw the last one away for a reason.
I'm going to have hubbs hide the scale again, for 4 weeks.
It worked last time, why not try again?

I did pack my workout clothes.
The hotel does have a workout room.
My goal is to get on the treadmill, at least, twice.

I am not going to fat doctor today.
Gonna save my $30 for the trip. haha
That's a bunch of Starbucks!
Yes, I know I should spend it on water or something healthy.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Shopping ReCap

Shopping yesterday was not as bad as I imagined it would be.
Thank goodness!!!

I found a dress at the first store, Ross.
It was only $14.99 so I got it and figured I'd bring it back if I found one elsewhere.

I had looked online for dresses at Target but, of course, when I got to the store they didn't have any of the ones I liked. I did get a pair of jean capris, size 9. I about fell out. I have no idea how I managed that one.

Today I went looking for a regular pair of jeans and was not as successful.
I ended up with a size 13/14 from Rue 21.

(My thighs are proving to be the biggest problem.)

(the dress is more purple than black)

Tomorrow is weigh in day.
& as always, I'm super duper nervous...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

More inches lost!

I tried to measure myself yesterday morning...
It was too nice to be true so I made hubbs do it this morning.

3 1/2 inches off my stomach! I cried! srsly

My arms, thighs and waist were either the same or worse. ugh

BUT my stomach is my biggest concern.
So I am happy with the findings.

And major thanks to all my friends who helped me out yesterday with the POS anonymous commenter.
It meant a lot to me!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Dear Anonymous

First of all, you are pathetic.
Anonymous? Really? Man up!

I can only imagine how pathetic your entire life is if you have to leave a nasty comment on someone's blog about their difficult times. You're wasting perfect air that someone else should be receiving.

Apparently you are a complete moron.
No where have I said I lost 11 pounds over night.
I weighed 185 in February.
180 in April.
174 May.
Does that really sound like over night to you?

Did you not see where my goal is 2 lbs a week?
Oh, sorry, you can't comprehend what's right in front of you.
Here's your reminder: my goal is 2 lbs a week.
Which means I'm already ahead of you and the point you're trying to make.

Since you probably didn't graduate high school then it's safe to assume you're not a doctor. Which means I will listen to my FAT DOCTOR before you. I do not intend on seeing him the rest of my life. It is a temporary boost to help me. I know the rules and facts. I WILL NOT MAGICALLY GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK ONCE I QUIT GOING TO HIM UNLESS I DO NOT CONTINUE TO EAT HEALTHY AND EXERCISE. It's common sense, you showed me nothing.

What was your purpose exactly?
To piss me off? Well, you succeeded. GOOD JOB!

But let me thank you.
Thank you for reminding me that pathetic people still do exist.
Thank you for reminding me that people put my life above theirs.
Thank you for reminding me that I'm not the worst person out there.
Thank you for making me want to be a better person,
because I refuse to be some lowlife excuse of a person who gets off on being a complete jackass and waste of space.

It is not my fault your life sucks, maybe you should think about that.


I'll be putting myself through torture tomorrow.
And I am NOT excited about it. At all.
In fact, I'm completely dreading it. ugh

I'm going shopping.
Have to buy a dress for the wedding.
& a new pair of jeans.

I'm ok with the dress because my dress size won't change that much with weightloss.
But I know I won't like half of them because of how I'll look in it.

No, I cannot even try to be positive.
Abso no sense in even getting my hopes up.

And the jeans?
I'm sure that will bring tears to my eyes.
I had to buy a pair about a month ago because I busted a hole in the last pair I had.
I just got a cheap pair from Walmart and they are already too big.
Size 14 and falling off of me. That kinda makes me smile, a little.

Target has my fav jeans, Mossimo. Well, they used to. I haven't bought jeans in a few years (bc I refuse to buy the size I am) so I hope I still like their's because that's where I'm starting my search.
And I already know what will happen: I will need size 14.
Cause even though the Walmart 14s are too big, the Target ones won't be.
That is just my luck!

I used to wear a size 7 jean. SEVEN!
My size has doubled!
That makes me want to vomit. All my guts out.

Reminder to self: I haven't worked out since Sunday!
I'm going to bust my ass this weekend.
Esp w/abs. I wasn't seeing a fat loss in my gut but suddenly I see the skin looking different and it's freaking me out. I do not want saggyness...

My fat doctor used to offer shots directly into the problem areas.
Back then I was not this big and I was only worried about saddle bags and I said, HECK NO.
But I'm way past the pain at this point.
Of course, they don't offer it anymore.
But they're going to check into it for me.
*cross your fingers for me!*

Thursday, May 13, 2010


I have to change my routine.

My husband works 2nd shift.
I only have afternoons w/him on Wed & Thurs.
And on those days I need to be spending time w/him,
not spending an hour plus working out and then an hour to cool/calm down.

So, Wed & Thurs will be my off days.
Unless I can find the motivation to get up early enough in the mornings.
(which, of course, is what he thinks I should do)

This means I can have no excuse the rest of the week.
I have not worked out since Sunday... UGH!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Eat What You Want Day

When: Always on May 11th

What would you like to have to eat today?

Okay, permitting, go ahead and have any and all of your favorite foods and snacks.
Because today is Eat What You Want Day.

Eat What You Want Day is definitely not a day for diets. It is one single, solitary day in the year to go off your diet and eat something you really enjoy, Today, you can set aside your dietary "No-No" list. Today, you can splurge. Tomorrow, it's back to the diet. It is important to note that today is not intended to eat as much as you want. Rather, the goal is to eat something you otherwise wouldn't have. If you are watching carbs or calories, simply keep within your limits by eating just a small amount of that favorite treat.

Dumb Move

Hubbs didn't put the scale back in it's hiding place so I got on it this morning out of curiosity.

Thank goodness it still said 174.
I was scared I was getting results from the cleanse on Sunday.
But I should be good to go now.

I just wish I could see the 11 lbs that are gone.
Yes, some of my clothes are fitting diff, but that's not enough.
I want to see my gut gone!
No, I'll never be satisfied.
Not until I'm the size I want to be anyway...

Monday, May 10, 2010

11 pounds lost!

I haven't weighed on my scale in a few weeks. 3 I think.
It said 174 this morning! How exciting?

I was super nervous about what the fat doc's would say...
It said 177, which is still a 1 pound loss from there's last week.

BUT, they advised me that I should go by my scale.
Esp, since I weighed there at 2pm:
fully dressed, 2 meals in me, 3 bottles of water and a sweet tea.
They said my truer weight would be first thing in the morning.

So, that's what I've decided to go on!
Which, might I add, is much eaiser to do now that both places are showing a loss!

Sunday, May 9, 2010


I have been unsuccessful, as of yet, with keeping a workout log.
& we all know that's a big step in the process.

I realized Twitter might be a good idea!

So, follow me if you want.
Or just check it out on my sidebar!

p.s. this is a diff one, not my regular one

Uh oh...

Guess what?
I haven't worked out in over a week...
Bad, I know. UGH

And it really makes no sense.
I went to fat doc and found out I lost 2 lbs then didn't work out. DUH

***You might not want to read this part***
I've been having stomach issues.
Couldn't decide if it was my kidney stones or my cycle.
Finally, I realized I was constipated. WONDERFUL.
I drank Benefiber and lots of water. Nothing helped
So, I drank some magnesium citrate this morning and it finally started to move.
It's amazing how I feel so much better.
It had been so long I didn't know what I had been feeling like!
That is ridiculous!

So, I am sitting here procrastinating my workout.
It shouldn't even be a thought.
I can already hear my Nanny nagging me when I see her in 9 days. ugh

Thursday, May 6, 2010

International No Diet Day

When: Always on May 6th

International No Diet Day encourages us to appreciate the bodies we have. You could consider it a "Big" backlash against becoming little (err thin), people. This day is intended for us to appreciate the body we have. It encourages us to recognize that people come in all shapes and sizes....... and that's okay.

Anti-diet groups exist to assist and support people who suffer illnesses like anorexia, in their efforts to shed fat and be thin. In addition to anorexia, other medical problems can result from taking diet pills, and surgeries, such as stomach stapling, to control weight.

International No Diet Day is a good opportunity to reassess and evaluate your weight management goals and perspective, and to make certain your efforts to be thin don't come at a risk to your health. If you decide that continuing your diet is right for you, then use today to take a one day break.

Thanks Holiday Calendar

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


This used to be my problem.
Now I keep the fridge mostly empty. (of junk food)
Now if I want a snack it's veggies, fruit or yogurt.

Monday, May 3, 2010

A loss, finally!

I walked into the fat doctor and said if the scale didn't show a difference that I was never getting another shot.

They proceeded to tell me that the shot affects inches not pounds. WTH?

So, I said I thought that it broke up the fat.
Was told, it does but I won't see a pound loss.

Maybe I'm dumb, but that makes NO sense to me. At all.

Anyway, the scale ended up showing 178, a 2 pound loss.
(I think it just wanted the girl that hurts me to give me the shots)
I nearly had heart failure! I'd seen 180 for sooo long!

I am curious to see what my scale at home says but I don't need that added torture.
Good thing the hubbs has hid it...

My goal is 2 pounds a week.
Can you believe I actually met a goal?
I can't! It's effing unreal!

Giving Up, Again

I'm going to attempt to give up sweet tea. Again.
(no, I can't drink unsweet. gross!)

Why, you ask?
A few reasons:

- I nurse a large all day at work: not getting enough water

- I HATE the way it makes my teeth feel & look

- I'd rather get my sugar intake elsewhere

- It adds too many calories to my diet

- Its a no-no for my
blood type

- I want to quit the caffeine addiction

I'm dreading the headache.
Although I'm thinking it won't be as bad as cutting out soda.
Let's hope so anyway...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Big Day Tomorrow

I am very nervous about going to the fat doctor tomorrow.

I got a shot last Monday and worked out hard core for 5 days straight. Normally I get them on Friday and don't work out until Monday.

My point is, if their scale doesn't show a good change then I am quitting the shot. Period.