Friday, January 6, 2012


So, I've gained 5 pounds.
& you know what that means.
It means I'm going back to the Aspen clinic to get phentermine.
Say/think what you will.
I realized that it was completely foolish of me to stop taking it before I reached my goal.
You read that right, I will take it until I reach my goal of 140.
Gaining 5 pounds at 140 is a lot easier to take than gaining 5 at 152.
I am starting to get depressed about it and that is not okay.
Since I've been working out, I know I will not lose weight for a while.
& that only fucks with my head that much more.
My appt. is next Tuesday.
If I gain anymore weight  before then I will have a fucking stroke!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

This Week's Routine

Obviously, I skipped Monday.

But, I started yesterday and that's better than not starting at all!

Here is my routine for this week:

I cannot do pushups (boyf is gonna teach me) so I do planks.
I don't know what burpees are so I do extra crunches.
It takes me about 15 minutes.

I know it doesn't seem like a lot.
I just wanted something to get me started and loosened up.
& I promise you that I am sore as fuck!
Tomorrow is day 3 (you know, the worst day) and I'm dreading it.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012


I hit 152 on Dec. 23.
Was a marvelous Christmas gift!

I am no longer taking phentermine.

Started working out this morning.

Up the hill again...