159

Got on the scale this morning.
I've gained 6 pounds. Back up to 159.
19 pounds to lose. again.

I almost chunked the scale out the bathroom window.
I slammed it against the floor instead.
It is the devil I tell you.

I know exactly what happened.
I got comfortable.
I was liking how I looked.
Loving how I felt in my clothes.

I was doing good at the gym but slacked off.
Continuing to eat the way I do without the gym is what happened.

This is a never ending circle.

My priorities are wrong.

I MUST GET CARDIO EVERY DAY!!!

I have a treadmill. I have NO excuse.
Even if I only do 30 minutes,
I'm going to start doing something EVERY day.

No more soda. ie: Sprite/Mt. Dew
I will only be drinking sweet tea and coffee through December then that's done.

It's time to be healthy!
It's not just about weightloss anymore.

Upset

I didn't weigh in this morning.
I knew it wasn't going to show a loss.

AND I'm not gonna weigh on my birthday and ruin that.
I didn't meet my goal, BIG SURPRISE.

But I'm not giving up.
Technically I have until summer to be bikini ready...

A Year Ago

Pictures of me from a year ago.

I want to throw up my guts.

Recent pic of me.

I don't see much of a difference.

Thinking I'll be putting on that Bridesmaid dress tonight...

brilliance

Let me just say,

it was pure genius to stop phentermine before the holidays.

FUCKING BRILLIANT.

story. of. my. life.

Again

I didn't weigh in. Again.
I know I haven't lost any.
And I def didn't want to see if the number went UP.

Being at my parent's house for 4 days this weekend is gonna EFF ME UP!

Lord, give me strength!

Not today

I didn't weigh in this morning...

It was a weekend full of carbs.
I'm pretty sure that's all I ate. No lie.
And althought I'm sure I did enough walking to make up for it,
I didn't want that downer on this Monday morning.

2 weeks left.
I do not see me meeting my goal.
BUT I am pretty dang close I must say!

Lots of clothes were tried on this weekend.
I'm in that nasty inbetween stage.
You know, where neither size fits right.
It's extremely annoying!

Going to be serious at the gym this weekend.
No more backing out and saying I don't feel like it!

srsly

oopsie

I forgot to weigh this morning.

Which means I'm just gonna go with the 153 from yesterday.

3 weeks left to lose 13 pounds.

I dont see THAT happening. ugh

153

I know it's not weigh in day yet,
but after seeing 154 ALL week
I was happy to see 153 this morning...

PLEASE OH PLEASE be there in the morning!

I know, I know

I've gotten on the scale every morning this week.

& every morning it has said the same thing, 154.
This is not usual for me.
Maybe I should think it's good.
But I feel more like I'm stuck.

The thing is, I know what I'm doing wrong.

I'm working out.
I'm not eating right.

I know, 100%, that if I would eat right with the way I'm working out that I would lose weight.

So what's stopping me?
I have no idea... Laziness? Yeah, probably.

I'm on my last week of phentermine.

I've got to get serious with the food.
If I can workout, I can eat right. srsly

I'm to the point where I think I'd be happy at 150.
But let's reach 150 and see how I feel then...

154

Still stuck.
Gym 3 times last week.

4 weeks to lose 14 lbs. UGH