Friday, May 14, 2010

Torture

I'll be putting myself through torture tomorrow.
And I am NOT excited about it. At all.
In fact, I'm completely dreading it. ugh

I'm going shopping.
Have to buy a dress for the wedding.
& a new pair of jeans.

I'm ok with the dress because my dress size won't change that much with weightloss.
But I know I won't like half of them because of how I'll look in it.

No, I cannot even try to be positive.
Abso no sense in even getting my hopes up.

And the jeans?
I'm sure that will bring tears to my eyes.
I had to buy a pair about a month ago because I busted a hole in the last pair I had.
I just got a cheap pair from Walmart and they are already too big.
Size 14 and falling off of me. That kinda makes me smile, a little.

Target has my fav jeans, Mossimo. Well, they used to. I haven't bought jeans in a few years (bc I refuse to buy the size I am) so I hope I still like their's because that's where I'm starting my search.
And I already know what will happen: I will need size 14.
Cause even though the Walmart 14s are too big, the Target ones won't be.
That is just my luck!

I used to wear a size 7 jean. SEVEN!
My size has doubled!
That makes me want to vomit. All my guts out.

Reminder to self: I haven't worked out since Sunday!
I'm going to bust my ass this weekend.
Esp w/abs. I wasn't seeing a fat loss in my gut but suddenly I see the skin looking different and it's freaking me out. I do not want saggyness...

My fat doctor used to offer shots directly into the problem areas.
Back then I was not this big and I was only worried about saddle bags and I said, HECK NO.
But I'm way past the pain at this point.
Of course, they don't offer it anymore.
But they're going to check into it for me.
*cross your fingers for me!*

4 comments:

Hayley said...

I've gotten 2 pairs of jeans at Lane Bryant and absolutely love them. I also buy bottoms at Torrid. Good luck on the search, I know how frustrating it can be!

Anonymous said...

You don't want sagginess? Are you kidding me? You dropped 11lbs practically over night, not only is that unhealthy but I hate to break this to you but you will have some sag. You shouldn't lose more then 2lbs a week. Ever. Also the minute you stop seeing your "fat doctor" as you call him you will gain your weight back, because your body is becoming dependent on the pills/shots and doesn't know how to loose weight naturally. Maybe you should take a healthier approach to weight-loss?

Kandid Kelli said...

Anon- I think you need to grow up. Your comment makes me wonder if you too are struggling with weightloss? Are you jealous that Jess lost 11lbs? EveryBODY is different. Give her a break. Oh and stop being a coward... a bully behind a comp. screen. Ha.

Jess- Good luck with the dress & Jeans search (targets sizes NEVR MATCH MY ACTUAL SIZE btw). No matter your size buying jeans is hard! Post pics of your dress!!

xo
-K

cooljessie said...

OMG ANOM. Who the hell do you think you are? Sounds like someone is a little envious and wishes they could loose some weight....Jess has lost 11 pounds over several weeks, hardly overnight. Guess you wish you could afford the fat doctor, pills, and shots....what a freakin coward you are...oh, and sounds like you have way too much time on your hands...find a hobby, like read book and learn something!!!