Friday, May 14, 2010


I'll be putting myself through torture tomorrow.
And I am NOT excited about it. At all.
In fact, I'm completely dreading it. ugh

I'm going shopping.
Have to buy a dress for the wedding.
& a new pair of jeans.

I'm ok with the dress because my dress size won't change that much with weightloss.
But I know I won't like half of them because of how I'll look in it.

No, I cannot even try to be positive.
Abso no sense in even getting my hopes up.

And the jeans?
I'm sure that will bring tears to my eyes.
I had to buy a pair about a month ago because I busted a hole in the last pair I had.
I just got a cheap pair from Walmart and they are already too big.
Size 14 and falling off of me. That kinda makes me smile, a little.

Target has my fav jeans, Mossimo. Well, they used to. I haven't bought jeans in a few years (bc I refuse to buy the size I am) so I hope I still like their's because that's where I'm starting my search.
And I already know what will happen: I will need size 14.
Cause even though the Walmart 14s are too big, the Target ones won't be.
That is just my luck!

I used to wear a size 7 jean. SEVEN!
My size has doubled!
That makes me want to vomit. All my guts out.

Reminder to self: I haven't worked out since Sunday!
I'm going to bust my ass this weekend.
Esp w/abs. I wasn't seeing a fat loss in my gut but suddenly I see the skin looking different and it's freaking me out. I do not want saggyness...

My fat doctor used to offer shots directly into the problem areas.
Back then I was not this big and I was only worried about saddle bags and I said, HECK NO.
But I'm way past the pain at this point.
Of course, they don't offer it anymore.
But they're going to check into it for me.
*cross your fingers for me!*


Hayley said...

I've gotten 2 pairs of jeans at Lane Bryant and absolutely love them. I also buy bottoms at Torrid. Good luck on the search, I know how frustrating it can be!

Anonymous said...

You don't want sagginess? Are you kidding me? You dropped 11lbs practically over night, not only is that unhealthy but I hate to break this to you but you will have some sag. You shouldn't lose more then 2lbs a week. Ever. Also the minute you stop seeing your "fat doctor" as you call him you will gain your weight back, because your body is becoming dependent on the pills/shots and doesn't know how to loose weight naturally. Maybe you should take a healthier approach to weight-loss?

Kandid Kelli said...

Anon- I think you need to grow up. Your comment makes me wonder if you too are struggling with weightloss? Are you jealous that Jess lost 11lbs? EveryBODY is different. Give her a break. Oh and stop being a coward... a bully behind a comp. screen. Ha.

Jess- Good luck with the dress & Jeans search (targets sizes NEVR MATCH MY ACTUAL SIZE btw). No matter your size buying jeans is hard! Post pics of your dress!!


cooljessie said...

OMG ANOM. Who the hell do you think you are? Sounds like someone is a little envious and wishes they could loose some weight....Jess has lost 11 pounds over several weeks, hardly overnight. Guess you wish you could afford the fat doctor, pills, and shots....what a freakin coward you are...oh, and sounds like you have way too much time on your hands...find a hobby, like read book and learn something!!!