Again

So, I've gained 5 pounds.
& you know what that means.
It means I'm going back to the Aspen clinic to get phentermine.
Say/think what you will.
I realized that it was completely foolish of me to stop taking it before I reached my goal.
You read that right, I will take it until I reach my goal of 140.
Gaining 5 pounds at 140 is a lot easier to take than gaining 5 at 152.
I am starting to get depressed about it and that is not okay.
Since I've been working out, I know I will not lose weight for a while.
& that only fucks with my head that much more.
My appt. is next Tuesday.
If I gain anymore weight  before then I will have a fucking stroke!