What you've been waiting for.

Managed to find the pic last night.
As soon as we did I got ill.
Marianne was not having that so she made me take another pic.
Still, I was not satisfied.
My stomach is still the same, you won't change my mind.
I was hysterical, bawling my eyes out.
Yes, I do see the differences.
But when they are not where I want them to be it's hard to be happy.

Left is from February 2010, Right was last night.

pictures

I still have not found the original "before" picture.
And I was at Marianne's last night and forgot to see if she still had a copy.

So, I think I'm just going to post a "now" picture.
I really do not want to.
BUT, I think doing so will help motivate me... somehow

Be on the lookout!

ugh

I have sucked at my mission this week.
the end.

Goal ReCap

I did not do good last week, at all.
I did better on the weekend, which is weird...

Mon 3/8
Tues 3/8
Wed 3/8
Thurs 3/8
Fri 3/8
Sat 5/8
Sun 6/8

Total: 26/56

I did get a shot at the fat doctor on Friday.
It's a new one I've never had before so maybe it'll do something amazing. haha

I'm on a mission this week.
& I will prevail!

Skinny

It's a good day. Why?

Because I feel skinny today...

Thought I'd share my progress with you.

I took a picture a long time ago, at my max, but cannot find it. Think it may be on the ex's computer. But when I find it I will show you my progress. Bet I throw up...

Lack of motivation...

If you've paid any attention to my meal pics on Twitter you will know how sucky I have been doing with food. Why? Because I can...

I do plan on getting serious next week though.
I have to go to the grocery store.
If I have the food, I will not buy the bad stuff.

& I've got to get serious about kicking this caffeine habit again.
I'm so angry with myself for falling off that wagon!
BUT it's so nice not having headaches! ugh
I've only been having 1 Mt Dew in the morning, but still.

I'm going to the fat doctor tomorrow to beg them to give me shots in my stomach. Wish me luck!!!

I think I have a new motivational plan.
Let me know if you think it's completely ridiculous... srsly
I want to be super picky in my next male situation.
I mean like, I want him to be sooo buff and cut.
And I feel like I need to be on that same track before I can be picky.
Doesn't that make sense? It does in my head...

I'm going out tomorrow night.
First night out in over 4 years. No lie.
And since I refuse to buy new clothes yet I had to squeeze into one of my old jean skirts. Luckily Marianne had a shirt I could wear with it. And she bought me the super cute necklace you see in the pic. Let me know how this looks.
I feel like it's kinda muffin toppy...

Plans / Goals

I need lists in my life.
Ideas in my head do not work for me.

Workout Plan:
- cardio 5x a week (mon-sun)
- strength training 2x a week
- ab workout on lunch breaks & after cardio
- lunges before bed

Eating Plan:
- 3 meals. no more skipping dinner!
- water ONLY
- take pic of meals (will post on twitter)


Every Monday I will post a weekly recap.