Back on Track! srsly

I'm for real.
I'm ready to get serious!

I just realized that last 3 months have been pointless.
I haven't lost weight.
I could have lost these last 30 lbs in 3 months.
Grrr

I was 158 Aug 9th
Back to 163 on Monday, Aug 30th
isn't that wonderful?
I was 166 in June...

Anyway, I'm going to be focusing hard core on this blog.
I think I need to pay attention to details and start seeing things in black and white.

My goal is to be 140 by Nov. 29th.
That would be the best birthday present EVER!

I just have to get my priorities straight.
Yes, I know I've said it a million times.
Maybe, just maybe, it will work this time!

Let's Get Physical

I was gonna get on the treadmill yesterday.

Thought about it all day.

But did I?

Of course not!

Anyone have any motivation pointers?!?

bad mood

I woke up this morning and something hit me...

I realized I haven't lost weight in almost 2 months.

I was doing so good with everything and then I ended up in the hospital. I'm trying not to make excuses, but everyone does it, don't point fingers at me.

I want another bottle of phentermine. So bad.
Luckily the bestie reminded me that it hadn't been working.
It was keeping me from eating everything I could get my hands on but it was not helping to move the weight.

I had 2 competitions going on.
I have to weigh in on Monday for both of them.
I am positive I lost them both.

I have to get serious.
I know, I mean really know, the trick is working out.
I just have to get my head wrapped back around that.

No, I haven't been to the gym since that first time.
Right now I have no idea why I even joined.
I knew I didn't like going to the gym on my own.
BUT, I've got to suck it up and grow some balls.

I need to set some life goals.

Picture Time

Feb 2010 - July 2010 - Aug 2010

1st Gym Session ReCap

Yesterday was my first day at Gold's Gym.
Or maybe I should say last night, 7pm...

First things first, the girl was dumb.
I mean she was too shy and awkward.
But at the very end I found out she wasn't even a trainer yet so I felt slightly better about that situation.

Their scale had me at 161 lbs
31.2% body fat (which is close to the obese range!)
45% water (it should be about 50)

We wrote my goals as:
140 lbs
25% body fat

Naturally, they are all about having you dish out money for Personal Trainers so I did not get very much help. And what she did show me was stuff I could do at home. Which pissed me off. Hard core. Apparently I'm gonna have to figure out how to use all the machines by myself.

She showed me arm and ab workouts with the ball.
I am so sore today it is unreal!
Beaty is Pain, I'm gonna start living by that.

She preached the same thing I've heard before,
"Only work out each muscle group once a week, except abs."
I'm going to try to stick with this.

Right now my goal is 3 days a week to the gym.
One day arms and chest,
one day legs and butt,
one day shoulders and back.
Abs every day of course.
I want to shoot for Mon Wed Fri but 3 days is 3 days at this point.

I'm gonna give it 2 weeks and see what happens.
If I need to consider a personal trainer, then I will. Temporarily.

Cha Cha Cha Changes

I've made a few big decisions lately...

- No More Fat Doctor
Which ultimately means no more shots or phentermine.
I decided the shots may very well be the cause of my kidney stones and I refuse to go through that again if I can help it.
I went through 3 bottles of phentermine.
I originally said I was only going to do 2, then it started working sooo good so by the end of the 2nd bottle I got another. And guess what? It quit working as good, of course. Part of me wants to get one more bottle to help with this last 20 lbs. But the other part of me realizes that if I don't stop now then it is just going to become a viscous circle.
I will be saving about $140 a month with this decision. WOW!

- No More Soda or Tea
Yes, I slacked up and was drinking Sprite and Mt. Dew.
And then I drifted into Sweet Tea again. Tea will be easier to get rid of, again, because of the kidney stones but I'm gonna miss my caffeine...
Don't get me wrong, I still drink water like a fish.
It's just one of those things I think about and realize I did it once, I can do it again and stick to it this time.

- Joined Gold's Gym
I'll be honest here and admit there are ulterior motives other than the obvious.
Like cheaper tanning, and putting myself in an environment w/hot juiced men.
But I also joined because I need help with strength and toning.
(that $140 a month from fat doctor is prob gonna go into paying a personal trainer)
I have my initial assessment Monday at 7pm.
I'm dreading my body fat percentage...


On another note I bought a pair of jeans today.
I've been putting it off and putting it off because I don't want to go shopping, lose weight and possibly drop 2 pants sizes and have new clothes I can't wear. BUT the size 14 jeans I have now are ridiculous, like fall to my knees.
I grabbed a size 9 and crossed my fingers...
They fit. They are a teeny bit snug but I look at that as wiggle room if I lose a few pounds.
So, my weekend is off to a good start!


p.s. I don't want people to think I judge weight by pounds or sizes. This is my personal journey, every one's is different. Hell, I may be stuck in a size 9 forever, and that's fine with me as long as I "look" the way I want to. Same thing with pounds. I'm not gonna get discouraged with the scale since I'm going to be weight training at the gym now. Again, it's about the "look" not the "number." I urge you to be the same way.

idk

I didn't weigh in this morning.
I've had a pretty eventful past few days.
And if you really want to know,
I didn't have a bowel movment from Tuesday morning until 9:30 last night.
Yeah, that's why I didn't weigh.
I knew it was gonna be bad.

I was doing sooo good with everything.
And then, BAM, something has to go wrong.
But I intend on getting back on track today.

I'm going to take another pic on the 25th.
Kinda anxious for that, gonna make it a monthly (4 week) ritual...