idk

I didn't weigh in this morning.
I've had a pretty eventful past few days.
And if you really want to know,
I didn't have a bowel movment from Tuesday morning until 9:30 last night.
Yeah, that's why I didn't weigh.
I knew it was gonna be bad.

I was doing sooo good with everything.
And then, BAM, something has to go wrong.
But I intend on getting back on track today.

I'm going to take another pic on the 25th.
Kinda anxious for that, gonna make it a monthly (4 week) ritual...

dang treadmill

I've never really paid attention to the treadmill when it comes to how many calories it says I have burned...

Until last night.
I was 15 mins into it.
I had ran 5, walked 5, ran 5.
It said I had burned 150 calories.
Immediately I realized that was not normal.
I usually run 5 then walk 25 and it says 140 at the end of that!

So, apparently the trick is to run?!?

I have never been a runner.
And I was fine with that.
But it seems I am capable of running now.
My knees and hips couldn't handle the stress before...
Since I don't have shin splints today I'm gonna work on running.
Maybe that will speed up this process a little bit.

I'm completely obsessed with this.
It is driving my friends crazy.
And I do apologize.
But when I am 18 lbs away from my goal I can't just sit back and be patient.

Jenny told me I'm the skinniest I have been since she's known me. Which is 3 1/2 years. That made me happy. And got me to thinking. I'm right there, or close to the weight I was when the ex and I got together... How ironic?

158

Only down 1 pound.
But at least it's down and not the same or UP!

I did good with working out, just check out my Twitter.
I did skip on Thursday and Saturday tho...

Motivation Found!

I found some motivation.
I wouldn't consider it the healthy kind, but hell, it's motivation.
I'll take what I can get!

I worked so hard on my abs that I shouldn't be able to move today.
But is that the case? Nope, they don't hurt at all. UGH

Interesting

I did some backlogging on this blog.
& found some pretty disturbing info.

June 5, 2009 : I weighed 175 lbs

December 28, 2009 : I weighed 187 lbs
and vowed to lose 40 by June 2010

January 2010 : I weighed 185

April 2010 : I got down to 180

May 2010 : 171

June 2010 : 166 (only 21 lbs lost of 40)

July 2, 2010: 160

August 2, 2010 : 159

This process took waaay too long.
Healthy weightloss is 2 lbs a week. Let's say that's 8 lbs a month.
Basically, I could've reached my goal in 6 months.
But no, here it is 14 months later and I have still have 19 lbs to go.

You'd think that'd be enough motivation, right?
Right. I'm struggling. Hard effing core.

bummed out

I thought I was gonna do good yesterday.
I was wrong.

I laid on the floor while watching Bachelorette.
I'd do some abs, lay some more, do some abs, lay some more.

& that was it.
I didn't even get on the treadmill.

I do not know what is wrong with me but I've got to find some motivation from somewhere.

I went and got another shot yesterday.
I swear to you it is making me feel like I'm starving. lovely.

I know I have a treadmill but I think I'm gonna have to join the gym.
Even if it's just for a month to get me into a routine...

159

The scale finally decided to move.
woo hoo!

Today was the day to do it.
I start a little competition w/2 diff friends.
Hopefully that will prove to be the motivation I need.

I am changing my goals.
Yes, I know I said I don't care about the number so much anymore.
But, I want my new goal to be 140.
I remember weighing 145ish when I was goin to the gym in Jax.
So I'm thinking I can get down to 140.

If I don't, and I'm happy w/how I look then that's fine.

But for now, I still have 19 pounds to go.

& I didn't even do enough to recap you on that...