Fat Doc Day

I did not weigh in this morning.

I had my jeans and shoes on before I realized I needed to. Then remembered I had done nothing this week to even consider losing an ounce. So, I passed.

I am going to the fat doctor today.
They will weigh me. But I never go by their weight. Simply because it will be in the middle of the day after I've ate 2 meals and with all my clothes and shoes on. I go by my scale. Period.

I'm kinda nervous.
Why? idk.
It's not like I haven't tried this a million times.
Hopefully I can stick with it this time.

Hubbs starts his night schedule next week.
I've got every oppurtunity to be successful.
I just have to get motivated. And fast.
I'm hoping my friend Marianne will be my workout buddy.
It's always easier that way...

I'll let you know what the fat doctor says. ugh

nightmare

I had a dream last night that I woke up and was skinny.

Like the skinniest I have ever been in my life.

Then I got on the scale and it said 185...

WTF does that mean??!?

no loss

again.

I'm 2 pounds behind schedule.

Maybe I'll have better luck next week...

dreadful

I am completely dreading my weigh in tomorrow!

I don't think I've gained any,

but it still is gonna suck...

I've only worked out once this week.

I've been sick and it just wasn't going to happen.

I'm hoping I can do it today though.

Oh, NO!

Today is day 174 of no soda or tea.

I am sick. Sore throat and a nasty cough.

& guess what I'm craving???

A Large Coke from Sonic.

I just know it would make me feel better!

I am struggling. hard core.

BUT, I will not give in.

I'll just be miserable alllll day. ugh

Motivated, finally!

I have a feeling I will jump around today.
So, just try to stick with me.

I only worked out 5 times last week (sat. to sat.).
For a total of an hour and 45 minutes.
And here I was wondering why I didn't lose any weight...

I kept track of points while at work but not once home.
BUT, I do not snack at home.
I'm not lieing, there is no snack food at my house.
And we didn't eat anything horrible for dinner so I believe I was in the clear.

I am almost out of my stockpile of Squirt.
And when it's gone, it's gone.
It will be strictly water from here on out.

I have 2, yes 2, friends going to fat doctors.
(Should I maybe not call 'em that?)
And both are seeing amazing results.
I finally have motivation to go back.

I don't quite remember why I quit or why I never went back. I think maybe I wanted to be She-Woman and do it cold turkey. But obviously that's not going to work. Originally I had said I wanted to lose 10 pounds before even considering it, but at this point I'm thinking that will help me shed those 10 pounds quick. I'm not going to take pills, those did not agree with me last time. I'm hoping I will be able to start within the next few weeks.

& starting today I am not eating anything white except oatmeal, if that's considered white. No bread, popcorn, potatoes, nothing white. I've never done anything so drastice except caffeine so I'm very anxious to see how this pans out.

185

No loss, as I assumed.
UGH...

I was doing super good on the treadmill last night.
Until it decideds to just STOP. Dead in it's tracks. Literally.
I don't know how I didn't break something.

So, I switched over to the elliptical.
Lasted all of maybe 5 minuntes.
Wonderful.

This is gonna be harder than it has ever been.
Simply becuase I'm in the worse shape I've ever been.